Stressed

As the end of the year gets closer by the number of days, I feel that i am even more stressed!!! Not only I am stressed in CCA cause i trying to excel and give my best! I am stressed with the deadline of FYP getting closer as well... FYP seriously... I have no mood to do it... It is totally SUCKS!!! If only I can just spend a few hundreds $$ and score an A or A- for it, I will be more than willing to do it...

Well... Schools and CCA aside... I am stressed by BGR too.... Well... I am so busy with my work and He is clearing his leave... and I can get at least 1 msg or call form him everyday!!! This is too much!!! Well... Basically, those patterns that works for normal girls like your friends, brothers or cousin will not works for me... to a lot of girls out there a call/sms a day is too little... but as for me during my stressed period which is these 2 months till Jan2011 if i finished my FYP... It is too much!!! Well I know that he loved me... cause every single things i said he will buy it for me... but some of them is just a wants and not a needs... and this actually cause me to have even lesser topics to talk with him.... I dare not say Look! this is nice :) Cause if that is said out and it is within his limit he will buy it almost within the next few days/weeks...

Well... I dun know how can I tell him... Can we give each other more freedom??? Cause i know that it can hurts if your partner says that to you... I guess one of the main reasons why BGR always starts in Uni and always within Uni is because they find common time to study together.... Whenever the other parties have exam so do they... something like that... Well as for me... He will only keep telling me to take a break!!! Well I know that in poly i give you an impression of relax fellow... but in uni life is really SUCKS to the MAX!!! You can never ever understand how it feels inside me... From the "God" level in poly and now hitting hard in the ground like the "Shit" level...

Hazi.... Well for the past week i have been preparing for this CCA activities call the Healthy Lifestyle, Happy Living party for the kids... Well I am quite sad cause some of the kids from my center did not make it in the end. But I guess today is a fun filled day for kids as well as volunteers!!! Well Done to all! And it does lift my mood for that few hours when i see that everything is so successful!!!

Freedom or Not??

This a good qn to ask myself... I have finished my exam in NTU for this semester... But then there is still FYP to go... Well for fyp only the GUI partly done... and the hardware wise... I can only say that nothing have been done other then buying the chips...I am really very very behind time... What should i do??? I know i need to get cracking and i need to submit in 1 month time... it is so so short...

Well... Now i am going to concentrate to do the party on 27th... after that I will start doing the FYP liao... Mandy Jia You!!! Jia You!!! U can do it de.... Well as for the exam... It is generally not too well done... but I hope that i can pass everything... Mandy Jia You!!!!

Exam!!!

Tml is the 1st paper in the 5th Semester of NTU. Well if the paper are like the past 2 years I am confident that I can do at least 50% of the paper... I am praying hard that there is as many calculation as possible... Well as for next week de paper I do not have any confident that I could do well or at least clinch a pass in the module... I am trying my best to concentrate in the exam however, I could not do that... I am just not in the mood to do that... And I am simply in the holiday mood.... What can i do... All I can say is "Thanks to YOG! We are delay by 1 month and now here we are so rushed in content & exam... We are having exam in SAT!!! And just 1 day before Christmas that we finished our last paper...." So are you saying that we are all going suffer once again??? Cutting short of the holidays to 1 month from Christmas... is just as good as not having a holidays... at 1st i have 1.5 months to do my FYP and now I am only left with 1 month to complete this stupid project!!! WTH right??? Hazi....

Low Chance != No Chance

Hmm... for non programmers out there the title != means Not Equal To.

Well why do I say that cause today i got back my professional communication result already.

But then it is only 80% and I did missed my target score which is A by quite a gap... However, there is still 20% so I still have a chance of getting A-....

I really prayed hard for that A- cause it is my only hope. Having a A- for professional communication just looks good on the transcript. Well, now My Resume and Cover Letter got A-. But I screwed up my presentation abit and only got B for it... Now is the 20% that is on the hands of the prof. So I am praying dam hard to get as much as possible for the 20%.

Counting down 2 weeks to EXAM

Time really past very very flies... Here I am counting down to my 5th Exam in NTU... It seems only like yesterday that i first step into NTU... All the ups and downs that i have been through with my pals in school are such wonderful times... They are a group of wonderful people who are always there to provide me with all the support. Without them Uni life is just so so boring...

I must get myself to studies as of tml else there is not enough time liao... T_T

Hopefully I am able to score slightly better this sem and hopefully I can grad with a 3rd class by the end of next year... Although I know that 0.2 is a huge gap and i need to strive super super hard to pull up this 0.2 gap but i will try my best to strive that.

Let all Jia You for this coming Exam all the Best to all and Me....

Busy... Busy... Busy

This sem is a Busy Busy Busy sem... I am Zero% motivated to do my studies related stuff...
So things are piling up... like Advance network quiz...Prof com de presentation and fyp... which is one of the part that i am most worried about... hazi... but what can i do... I am not good at time management... zzz

Well... well... lets update abit more...
For the past few weeks, I found that we have this activity that i did with my fellow mates after Friday night classes which is to eat dinner together!!! And best of all it is outside school!!! =D I loved the last round where we have frog porridge... It was nice... It was my 1st time eating that ... although not the 1st time eating the frog... used to eat alot of frog leg when i was younger...

Hmm.. other then that... TCS (Tweens Club @ Sengkang) the club that i volunteered for as a tutor finally came to an end on the 30th Oct!!! It was really a fun day for all of us that is there. =D

Next up, It is my student's result I was so happy for him... finally he did a breakthrough and score 4 Band 1. The mum was so happy!!! I feel happy for him too! It was his 1st time scoring 88 in maths and 94.5 in science... before tuition he was only <80 for maths and science forever did not hit the 90mark.... so this time round it is considered a breakthrough for both subject that i taught him and i was happy for him =D

Yesterday night i went to play nation with my poly mates and it was dam fun!!! We played a total of 4.5 hours for wii.. and i have stiff arms now... lol too long never excercise and yesterday did too much i guess.. lol... It was fun!!!

Lastly, Today was dam lucky.... An sms woke me up at 9am... and i was like OH SHIT!!! Cause i have a volunteers training class at social service training institude which is about 45 mins journey if via train... and the course starts at 9.30am... zzZZ... So I tot hazi.. spend some $$ and take cab down since not peak hour cause SAT... who knows when i cross the road my ex-student de daddy saw me and gave me a free ride all the eay there!!! So good right??? lol... IN the end manage to get there at 09.30am... =D The course i think was okie but quite tiring as it was from 09.30 to 05.30pm (>.<) Well but manged to stay awake throughout and got my certificate. =)

Thats all for now!!! It is time for sleep tml will be the day to study!!!

Blog Design

Well... Thanks everyone who post comments on the chat box... Bascially, I did not quite understand what ur mean by blog design... cause i basically use the templete provided by blogspot here as my basic design and expanded it to 3 section via HTML coding that i editied myself a few years back...

If your mean the HTML coding do let me know ur email add so that i can email it to u.
=) Cheers!!!

What is wrong with this world!!!

Ever since young, I know that life is never fair... But today, I feel that life is totally SUCKS!!!

Ppl who do not even attend lectures and can pass the quiz and me who attended the lecture almost 90% and yet failed the quiz badly..... less then 30%....

Well, friends around me says i looked cool and normal with that result but inside me I am not!!! I am angry with myself for not starting to prepare earlier but I am more angry with the unfairness... Well although i am not a very result orientated person but i am still feeling dam low.... as i need to worked super hard in order to get and A for my exam... It is so so so difficult with so many things to manage as well.....

Today, I got very pissed by one of my project mates. Yes, he is very good in software and hardware. He did a good job when it comes to project related to this scope... But if you do other project with him you will not be able to tahan.... We are in the middle of discussion for our assignment 2 and then he suddenly ask about details of assignment 1, well nothing wrong with that cause it need to be submitted tml. so being kind I told him the details. Just as soon as he got the details he replied: "sorry guys, gtg meeting my friend" I was piratically saying WTF to myself... he thinks that meeting his friends is more important then submitting something that need to be done and submitted tml and it is worth like 10% of his score.... well he have another 30% to work with if his attitude con't i dun know when will i explode and scold ppl....

Well... I just hope that everything will starts to turn better and I am going to work like never before during this recess week... need to complete all my tutorials all over again... and also fyp... need to build up the circuit in recess week.... There is just too many things to do... God please give me 48hours a day instead of the normal 24... Or maybe let me able to work 24 hours non-stop for a few days....

Keeping my fingers crossed nothing out of expectation will pop out during this recess week....

22nd Birthday!!!

Firstly, I want to say a big thank you!!! to all my friends and family for the wishes =D

okie... actually my birthday celebration kicked off last sunday 19th Sept!!! Which is the same day as my 21st birthday party!!!

Okie back to the topic, we kicked off with a dinner with my favourite dishes which i go and choose and buy myself =) Then, to my surprise bro acutally buy a cake for me!!! and it is Ice-cream cake!!! lol.... Normally I used to order my own cake u see.. lol and was thinking this yr different dun want cake liao... since last year de so big!!! lol ...

next celebration is on the 22th Sept whereby i cooked 1 soup and 2 dishes for my family as dinner =D so happy that they like my cooking =D

Lastly on the actual day, 24th Sept!!! All my friend's facebook message as well as sms!!! thank you so so so much!!!

oh and also a birthday surprise held by FOC committee 2010/11. Haha... this is the 1st time i have a birthday celebration in public and school .... so shocked... but it is a plesant surprise. Thank you so much!!! Love you lots

and till today i still received sms from my 1st tuition kid. it have been 4 years since i last tot him and yet he still rmb today is my birthday... I am so touched!!! All the best for your O's Level soon!!! Jia you Jia you!!!

I want it BACK!!!

I want is back!!!

I want my caring daddy to come back... i still rmb in sec 3 when daddy fall down from the roof top and broke his right leg yet he still drive me to school every morning...

When i was back in poly if i never reach home by 08.30pm he will call and ask me to wait for him in school he will come and picked me up... and drive me to school whenever it is 0800 lesson....

I really really missed those days.... Now my daddy turn into a totally different person... he only know how to ask me to help him type his bills, quotation and his work related stuff....

Does not even care about me anymore... Yesterday, When i was in pain for my leg.... due to certain reasons i also dunno ... and yet he did not even ask a thingy... and ask me to type his bill for him... I am not expecting anything more... Just 1 sentence and I will be happy and glad.... Just 1 sentence : "What happen? How is it?" Is it that difficult... I am totally disappointed by his action... no care and concern.... I no longer feel the loved that he used to shower me with.... I am in a lost in a sudden.... It is so.... so.... disappointed...

Hopefully, my leg will recover in these few days... which i think is hard also... cause CCA needs to walk around alot ... and i am surviving on my ankle support... which is just of no use... it is still very painful... but strange is that i did not sprain my ankle... it is just that i walk a distance too far for the whole day i guess... but how come... this time is so bad... that is still in pain ... last time it only lasted 1 day.... I am so so puzzled.....

A Brand New Begining

It is the start of a new Semester and also a brand new Year.
Always hoping things to good but it is always not the case.

Hazi... Trying hard to concentrate in lecture but it is always a failure... lol...
I just fail to concentrate... lol...

Plus the timetable this sem is totally sucks like HELL!!!

Finding a Balance

Yup, I am trying very hard to find a balance point between work and play... but it seems like work is never ending and it keeps pile up and up... so when is the day i can strike a balance between work and play???

I really dun know... it seems like i start to have social breakdown... I stopped going out with my friends for just chit chat and talk rubbish... It is a long long time... I have been going out only when needed to for Meeting all that... in order words unless 100% needed if not you will not see me... ...

I hope i can strike a balance point soon................................................

Busy... Busy... Busy

Well well well... It has been a busy busy busy months for me... working hard to earn $ but forget about social life.

How i wished i am still the innocient girl i am when i was in poly year 1, without social life and not that much of pressure. Ever since in poly it changed my life esp from a person that head to school for lesson and headed home after lesson to a girl that hang out with friends almost every weekend... Well it is good at least i have friends to talk to but also bad as it makes me very very tired...

Working hard for my life is very important and since i just got confirm in a position i shall not get into too much other stuff... it is just too much for me...School + work +CCA. I used to be able to plan time very very well.. but now... look at it, it is in total mess.... thanks a lot for the stupid school that have lesson in the afternoon and evening only.. Feel like taking a PT degree than a full time one... hopefully when school reopen the prof will change the stuff... hazi...

What is the aim in life

Whenever I feel very tired out due to work, I would ask myself: "What is the aim in life?" Have anyone ever think of this qn? Well... There are many thoughts that will run through my mind whenever I look at this qn.

With so many thoughts, it makes things even more difficult for me... and after all that thinking and the conclusion is nothing..... It makes ppl feel very depressing... and very annoyed whenever it comes to this... and i think it is rather stupid qn to ask yourself... okie...

I am going to get myself a new phone =) what phone? No idea yet... cause the one i am aiming for seems to exceed my budgeting. Sometimes ppl looked at me working so hard they would be asking me things like: "you must have earn and save alot" But my final ans to them is: "Yes, I earn a lot but look at my saving... it is aways that low... even lower then those that are very good at money managing and stuff... oh well nvm... I will try to save after all it is all hard earned $.

Mood Swing due to work stressed

As the days of LDS is counting nearer, I start to feel the stress... as i have this stack of claim waiting for me to invoice them starts to pile up... and i was like =.=

Stressed out not only due to work but also some other problem like:
1. FYP what am i suppose to choose....
2. CCA hope that meeting will not clash with tuition
3. Hope that i can manage my tuition till end of the year...
4. What i am suppose to do with such stupid schedule on a weekdays...

Hazi... it is all my fault...
I can't even find time to destressed myself... my colleague are all asking me: "do you ever think/feel tired... " Right down in my heart: "Yes! I do" but then I will still say: "Hmm... still ok la.. got used to it liao... "

I dun know sometimes i just dun need to be so strong, I am a girl I can just find someone else shoulder to lean against and pour out all the unhappiness... but i found that i can't... I dun know why... I just cannot pass my own personal trap... I just cannot get out...

Finding a guy that is successful in his career and can let you lead a good life after married to him is every girls dream. But how many % can do that.... I dream to be staying in those landed housing and also have my own maid and stuff.. so i dun have to do house work i can just do those i like, for example cooking and i can leave those i dun like to the maid example washing and eating... lol as the person cooking i always ended up eating the least.... lol ....

Anyway... I hope min i will be able to afford a maid and a car... landed housing maybe in the mid 40's ...

I am just so TIRED

Recently, I have quited my Popular job. But then it not any easier for me. Currently i am holding 1 temp job which is at Siemens and also 2 tuition assignment which is 8hrs a week. Well, my siemens job can be boring but interesting as well... Boring as in get chase for stuff almost every day. But interesting cause i have a group of fun loving colleague.

Well, I still love my tuition not only does it pay well but it is also my passion i guess... whenever i need to go tuition i will feel very very tired. But then whenever i see the kids, they will lighten up my life... Teaching can be angry and tiring... but it can be full of achievement and fun. =)

Okie lets stop here for today... i shall update again....

Update Update!!!

Recently seen a lot of update from my friends blog... but when school reopen everyone blog went dead... lol.... I guess it is common thing in NTU. You are always too busy with your school work... lolz...

Anyway, There is nothing much that happen... Started with a new tuition and found that teaching is really fun!!! And suddenly have the tot of going to NIE after i grad from NTU!!! I want to teach primary school kids and not yound adult in poly!!! Anyway, there is still 1yr 6months to go for me to make decission who knows that i might change my mind when the time get nearer?? lol...

Recently sign up for a gym and went there once... but i guess did not exercise for too long and got muscle ache the next day... next week will be going once or 2 more time then in July i will go more often i guess =).

Hmm... Recently i dun like office job i also dun like the popular job and feel like quiting liao... haha.... and i need more time for my student i guess cause she having PSLE in a few weeks time... lol ... gotta go!!! need to pack up and get ready for work

21 Days

It has been 21 days since my last off day.... or shall i say rest day since i did not have a job back than....

Well... lets me update about the popular book fair the last weekend 1st.

Sat --> Popular book feast is so so so empty!!! And ended up not much sales only manage to get $100plus nia...

But Sun the crowd was back and i manage to get $700plus sales and I was delighted but I was pissed off by Bitch I know it was rude to call someone by that name... but she really is.... She did nothing but only take the flyer to that customer and I manage to say until the customer buy the stuff and ended up she say it was her sales!!! WTF right?? But hopefully they can tell la... you see how can she close a sales of 279.50 if all her 3days sales was only like 50 or 80 or the most 135... come on la... face the world man....

NVM... then i had a good rest and started my week at siemens again and was kana chased by ppl for the issue of tickets and stuff.. Oh ya... not to mention that my contract was extended for another 4 days till end of the month... sian..... nvm..... Hopefully $ comes in fast... cause need to pay phone bill insurance bill and i want to buy my new phone!!! N97 mini!!!

Freak!!! Kill ME!!!

Lol... my leg is killing me... have been standing around 8hours ++ today was being send to expo for the popular fair as promoter... well... there is good and bad.. good is alot of $$ but bad is have to work harder... have been walking and standing around just only demo to customer can sit... so in the end i think total about 10Hours of standing... it is so bad... now my leg feel like jelly and i dun feel like moving or anything... lol.... anyway...

I dun care what ppl think about me but to me sales is very important else i won't work for weekend liao... cause...where the hell you find ppl work 7 days a week with average 8hours per day... it is really very very crazy... I am turning into old lady soon... lol... due to insufficent rest... lol.... Actually feel quite bad if to take ppl sales... but if you only and attract cust there you cannot close then you actually dun deserve it... to a few ppl i know you want us to close you try to talk to the customer... but i really dun like!!! I like to tacker them myself.... I really wants to....cause if more ppl are saying it makes the parent even more confused.... so dun come and disturb me it is actually the best help liao....

Tired....

Recently, the road in my life seems to have more up and down compare to the normal days... it is just so not smooth and making me very sick and tired of life... I tired to spend all my time on work... but then... it seems like a never ending process... Now i am not only physically drain at work but also mentally drain.. could not get to sleep at night and not wanting to wake up in the morning... it is just so sick... although the journey from home to office is just 30mins... but it seems so far far away when i am walking towards the office or MRT... However, the journey out of office to home just seems to be so short when the distance is actually the same....what can i say??? I dun like my current job because need to deal with the phone a lot and i dun like to talk on phone especially within an office... lol.... so most of the time i end up just by sending email....

The final Journey in a life....

Today, I rejected everything on my schedule and send my beloved neighbor for her final journey. Life is just so fragile...I am rather sad is because I treat her just like my grandmother. You know the feeling of a grandmother passed away. The pain is exactly that much.... Nothing lesser... As she lived in Kampong before so do I so we have been living the Kampong style for the pass 18 years of my life walking in and out of each other house easily... Imagine a grandmother that have gone through the sweet & sour in life with you for the past 18 years.... It is indeed painful.

Now that she have passed away i really dun know who to talk to.... She have always been my listening ears as i feel my parents nag at me too often till i dun feel like pouring out the sorrows in my life to them as they will never give me their listening ears...they always start saying something else once i hit a certain point...if they loss then they will end the conversion with yaya... you very smart then you go do lor ... What is this .....

Anyway today's final journey is a very very grand one... it is good as she like it that way.... Her coffin was carried by several young men rotating and we walk a distance of 1.2KM before we took the bus... it was one of the longest i have ever attended and not only that ... cause on the journey there were a slope... so you can imagine... how grand it was... walking 1.2KM....

Auntie... hope you like it. I really missed you a lot.... I missed all the jokes, your voice, your food and many many more.... Hope you settle well in the new place together with your beloved husband and son..... Farewell my dear Auntie.....

R.I.P

To my best neighbor always,

R.I.P

You will always be rmb for all the smiles and happiness that you inject into my life...

You are the only one that i can trust and pour my sorrows to .

Now that you have left me, but you will forever stand a place deep inside my heart.

Don't worry too much on your grand children.... I will rest assure that they will be in good hands...

I would try my best to help them out no matter in what ways....

R.I.P my beloved Neighbor aka Auntie aka Po Po

Hang it there!!! they need you....

Today, after knock off from work i reached home to and saw an ambulance at the car park and i am already praying hard hoping that it is not my neighbor... She has been critically ill for the past few months... but what i heard from my mum is that her son send her to TTHS this morning and now TTHS asked her to come back home to rest instead of the hospital... So after a while i went over... and my tears could not be held back the moment i saw her in the unconscious when her grandchildren and son call her also no responds.... My tears just flow like a tap... i try to control myself as much as possible but i just could not... She is just so nice... Although we are just neighbor, she often talk to each other and she is just like my real grandmother....

SO God!!!! Please... I please you.... dun take her away!!!! She is a good and kind person.... she dun deserve all these ... she deserve better life.... which she have not got it so please.... please let her recover.... she is the mental support of the whole family... please... please I please you to provide her with all the power and will to fight the cancer cells... and let her recover.... please....... i beg you.......

So tired!!!!

So tired!!! Yes i know it is only day 2 of my admin job but then.... i start to feel tired of my job liao... Currently the system not up yet... so i am just doing paper work.... which is filing nia... from 9 to 6 just do filing... so sian right??? Next week the system is up then i will be very sian.... cause need to help the 12 staff that i am taking care of to claim their medical expenses claim and help them to book air tickets all that... sian i very scared that it will be very hard cause i never try be4... hope that just need to use the email and not phone call cause i scared that i cannot catch what they are talking... hazi... quite surprise that Siemens got so many international staff... =)

Hmm... let me count how many job i will have

1. Temp admin (9am-6pm--> weekdays)

2. Pri 6 tuition (0930 - 1230 --> Sunday)

3. Pri 4 tuition (4hrs per week on weekdays)

4. Promoter ( 2pm - 9pm --> weekend)

5. Assessment editor (Freelance)

6. Community service (10am - 12.30pm --> Sat)

haha... it looks like very over..... hope that i can manage it welll .... Mandy Jia You Jia You!!! Look at the $$ behind the hard work and hopefully won't feel tired....

Life is just full of decisions....

Well life is just full of decision.... And a decision can also make you regret for life!!!

So when ever we are making any decision, be sure that you think for a longer time, dun regret after that....

Well... today i was given a decision that will affect my life for the next year,

decision 1: Vending Machine

decision 2: PC signal control function generator

This is the 2 topic given by prof lee for my FYP.... It will affect 10 AU and it will also affect 1 year of my life in NTU which is about 30% of my time in NTU!!!

Anyway these few days, there is a lot of decisions....

1. Take up new tuition assignment which i have already taken up ( waiting for parent to reply)

2. Take up new admin job.... (Still looking)

3. Help out as promoter (Confirm for weekend)

4. Go for WSC Camp (Already Rejected)

5. A lot more to do....

Hazi... hopefully all these will not affect my life too much.... :'(

going into the 5th day of my holidays

This 5 days of holiday can be fun and sad as well.... Fun as in i get out to play and stuff... But sad because the more time i spent at home the more time i feel this home dun suits me... there is just so many things to do!!! My mum is nagging all the way.... I go out never tell her also nag... I want to take in new tuition kid also nag... why is she nagging all the way???

She keep saying i have no responsibility so cannot suit to be a tutor WTF lor ... where got parent pour the whole bucket of cold water on their own child.... She keep saying last time i teach my neighbor de kid at home she say i never concentrate.... WTH... They are just paying me $100 bucks per month for tuition and it is min 4hrs per week sometime 1 week is 8 or 10 hours... i did commit my 4 hours well but just that the extra hours per week i ask her over but she is doing her work while i did mine... But then that is the extra hours ... i need to do that because she is too lazy to even finished up the home work i assign to her!!! And where the hell u find $100 bucks per month de P6 EMS tuition for 1-1 that is 3-4hr per week!!! Even those group tuition i saw it was $135 per month and it is 1.5 hr per week only!!!

Anyway i dun care liao... unless i get an admin job if not ... then i am going to take up the new tuition that is near my house. so this holiday weekdays i will go for tuition P4, sat community service, sun current tuition then after the morning community service and current tuition i pushed to morning liao.... i am going to work for my that popular promoter job... maybe weekdays also can... lol ... depends on how ba... cause at the same time i am starting my FYP also so that during school term i can hack care FYP and treated it as though it never exist... lol

The last battle

Yeap!!! Very fast and i am down to the last battle of the Semester...

CPE415 --> My 1st SCE module that i finished up all my tutorials... lol

Hopefully that i can score well for it although i know it is hard but i still wanna score min a B....

Oh ya, actually i already in holiday mood liao last night i went out with my dear and friends to celebrate my dear de birthday and we have a whole night of fun prawning ... although catching the prawn is fun but cooking them is not... haha so next time prawning i won't cook the prawn i think it is so .... lor the funny thing is hor.. the prawning farm actually have a few dogs and this particular dog follow us out of the farm and we have walked about a bus stop distance and it is still following us so i told my friend i think it does and know the way home so end up we guide it home... lol so naughty ... haha....

Happy Birthday in advance dear!!! =)

Praying Hard

I am praying hard that history dun repeat itself... As in like forensic science so confident in the paper in the end B. Cause this time round the accounting i feel that the section B is can do de ... then section A i also can do but 3 qn dun know how to do... :'( Hope that this time round i can get a Pointed Grade.... Cause accounting is the only module i did 60% of the tutorial + go through 20% of those qn i did not do and also did 3 sem de PYP!!!

Although everyone is telling me that it is just an elective i should just SU and go on to study my core... but i found that i have more interest studying that elective then my core leh... then ppl start saying that then i took the wrong course but i prefer doing SCE project then NBS de leh ... how?? lol is there a module that project is like SCE but exam like NBS?? lol.... Oh maybe yes... the yr4 module.... lol i got 1 the prof say as long as u can press the calculator fast enough u can finished the paper... lol but it is true a lot of calculation there....

Oh ya wish me luck for my next 3 papers.... my worries of the sem.... 303 worried because although i know some of the stuff but then everyone around me seems to be pro... 301 and 302 dun say la... 302 a few zai one around but i totally dun know what it is lor... lol

301 i believed in the power of bell curve... i just need a pass.... :x

It is getting nearer and nearer!!!

Exam is getting nearer and my stress level is getting higher... actually it is more or less i ask asked for it de... never did i work hard from the start of the sem therefore when the sem is about to end and as the exam get nearer, I am feel so stress.......

5 papers and zero papers have been revised and out of 5 papers only 2 of it i know some stuff of it and the other 3 is totally zero knowledge... lol

MIA...........

Haha.... I have been MIA from this places in the past 1 month.... It is not i wanted to but i am just too busy to blog... now a lot of things happen in this 1 month...

I am quite happy that i clear my 301,302,303 lab fast this sem... now i am left with 415 project... it is not hard but not easy too... the image too large if not i would have completed it liao... hazi...

Anyway... in the past 1 month, A lot of things have happen... my student getting back her result with a high score of 73 and 90 for Maths and Science respectively... it was quite impressive i would say... BTW, for the past 1 month although i suffer a lot under the pressure of school work, i had a lot of fun as well....

I went out with my poly friends is such an enjoyment =)

Then my best buddy de birthday party was fun as well =)

Not forgetting the every sat RSP FOC event ... it can be fun and angry... haha... just dun want to be too friendly cause the kids dun know their limit .... so i can say that i am the most strict person in the group of 16 ba... haha

Oh ya... my wish came true ... i went to the goat farm on the 20th... haha actually i just wanna go there to buy the goat milk... cause i like it... =) Anyway... it is a fun trip to the farm =)

Oh.... and 1 thing have been in my mind for very long... to accept him or not...

Although during my 21st birthday he finally pop the qn of going steady... i did reject him but on the other hand i am just not prepared to start a relationship... it is my 1st one after all....

He is rather nice to me... and i am most touched that he rmb whatever i say to him.... it is like so nice... no one ever treated me that well... you know as i study in engineering courses the guys dun really treat me like girl... they treat me more like their brother... haha.... but i enjoyed it =)

Actually, I know that he is good.... but then i dun know if i am ready for it a not... hazi... i think we shall go on as friends for a longer time till i am ready ba...

hazi... i shall sign off here....

Last day of recess week

Today is the last day of recess week and I spend my day by teaching tuition for 3 hours and cooking dinner for the family with my mummy =D

O ya. I would like to congraz my tuition kid for the CA result. It is really a good job!!! Although i am in the teaching industry for more then 6 years although this is only the 3rd kid that i collect $$. But i am glad that she score well for her Maths and Science. Which is the only subject that that i am teaching. She scored 73 for Maths although 6marks lower than what she score for p5 SA2. But then P6 is different from P5 ma... so drop a bit okie la .... But her science although i never teach her in P5 she scored 70 for it. And now she score a surprising high score of 90!!! I tot i cannot really teach that well for science but then surprising that she score sure high result.

Wanted to thank her for her hard work so i gave her one of my hello kitty collection set since i have more than 1.

Recess week

The long await recess week is already here but also gone 2/3 of it liao... only left fri,sat and sun only... Sat will need to go community service, then sunday got tuition... so will be quite ... Counting down we are only left with a few more days to accounting quiz.. i am quite worry although i have read the stuff about 70% okie liao... but then still quite worry if last min forget how?? just like my STS module last time... still cannot score well... hope that this sem we can get better result ba....

FYP selection is out!!!

There are 200plus FYP topics released last night... But out of the 200+ topics a lot of topics i like it but then i have no confident that i can do it... Unlike poly, i can go and pests the prof. So i also dun know what to do...

A few project assigned by prof Lee looks interesting and i think i am going to talk to him more about it and maybe take his project. Prof Lee taught me in 1st year 1st sem. he is the 1st lecturer that made me feel more relax by his teaching style like the poly style....

hmm.... but a few other projects looks interesting and hope that i can get something that i can manage... it is so stressed... haha... just hope that things turn out fine just like the poly FYP. I rmb that during poly FYP selection period I was also worried that i could not do alot of stuff... but in the end i still manage to do it... =D Hope everything turns out fine... =)

Thank Godness

I would like to thank god for letting me find my necklace. This necklace is the very 1st necklace that my parent have brought for my and it is my 21st birthday present. Therefore, it is very important to me. But then i have been just laying it around without even a tot. Today when i am preparing going to school and i found that the necklace is neither in the box nor my table... but since i am late for lesson i just wear the other one that grandma buy for me. Although it is also the very 1st present given by my grandma, but as compare to my parent. Theirs is more important and nicer.

Once again Thank God!!!

tired....

Recently have been very tired and moody... but now getting slightly better so decided to blog a bit... hazi.... i have been skipping lecture again like nobody's business and i dun feel like studying even at home that is the worst part of all lor...

Anyway... i must really settle down to study liao la... if not i will once again getting a D on my transcript that i don't want to....

Jia You Jia You .... Study Study.....

Go away!!!!!!

How should a dad behave like??? I really have no idea!!! Cause mine did not behave like a dad should at all... he have stopped working for about 2 weeks already and all he did was to sit there and play electronics game just like a kid...in his next life and next next life i hope that god will let him be a woman and have a husband like how he is behaving and let him have a taste of this kind of life...

In short in fact, i think all man are like that even my 2nd bro, they just act as if nothing happens... just hide in the room or act blind... he just dun see a need in helping whereas me and my poor mummy have been busy since yesterday... we would have have been so busy if everyone just chip in a bit to help eg. sweeping the floor, mopping the floor and such...

Other then the busy schedule we still have to buy food for them just worried that they are hungry... if i were my mum they will not get any food... hungry go buy yourself la.. not happy arh... ur problem... and i am really grateful to my mum that had such a difficult life all these years.... If i were my mum i think i would already file a divorce already... poor mum i will try my best to loved you even more from today onwards. and i am really sorry if i have shouting at you or what so ever for the past few years... i know it have been hard on you...

LOVE U MUM (*hug*)

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Haha... I know that there are still 2 days to CNY but i am in CNY mood for very very long liao...

Today i very happy, I went to sakae sushi to eat buffet again... haha.... it is like ours once per sem gathering... haha we had this every single sem and i loved it =D

I like to eat those raw salmon and tuna fish... it is so nice and yummy... haha...

Feeling tired...

CNY is around the year all the spring cleaning and stuff is making me tired... but then i am also happy that it is coming cause i can get to play with my baby cousin again... hehe...although i keep calling them baby but in actual fact, they are no longer babies liao ... one of them is going to be P1 next yr and the other will be K1 next yr... time really flies.... At 1st i was counting that i grad from NIE just nice he P1. but then now it is no longer the case... haha

The qn that i keep asking myself back in yr1 is back again... why study??? i think the yr3 moudle really sucks leh... esp the 301 ... the tutorial is like Maths 1 plus maths 2 lor... i dun understand why is it call digital communication... it should be Maths 3... at least if i know there is so many maths in the course i would have just took EEE and i will be doing my FYP now waiting to grad liao... but... now need extra 1 sem cause i switch to this course... anyway... i know la we should not regret on whatever decision we have made... we should try to make the decision wise at the point of time rather then regret it later like me... I have made up my mind... after grad i will find a job... then if i not happy with my job then i will go take the NIE postgrad degree. the most bond 3 yrs... but then after that i can open my own tuition centre... =D nowadays tuition is the most popular industry liao.... =D

Yes and No....

Hazi... Why must we have so many Yes and No in life???
let me start with happy stuff...
I finally get the chance of going back to my sec school although i did that a few times when i grad from there but it have been a long long time since i see all the teachers there.... Only a few will rmb me i guess.. but there is also very few left :'( but nvm... tml i will be going back for the alumni party with my gang of friends that used to be with me through out my life in sec. Really hope to see more ppl there tml... looking forward for the party... and hope all the teachers can stay and chit chat with us... esp Ms Lee(my fav maths teacher) and Ms Sae (my fav Science and form teacher)

okie... after every happy thing, there will be sad stuff....
The sad stuff is that i am no longer in the mood of studying... looking at all my results they sucks like hell... looking at all the tutorial and they seems so new to me... It is already week4... which is 1/4 of the sem is gone already and yet i am still so nua... and suddenly this week just keep asking myself why study??? i am not in the mood... or rather i looked forward to celebrate CNY more then anyone else... lol

I am feeling tired...

I am feeling so tired... I am not in the mood of doing anything..... no matter it is study or work... i really have no mood....

the 200th Post on my blog

This is the 200th post in my blog... haha it is also one of the longest blog i had =)
Well this is week 3 in school and all the stress will be start coming up from now on... and i am going to be in deepshit for my 301 and 303 i think... and 415 i am quite worried for my 415 project.

Oh ya... anyone interested in donating stuff for REDBox project??? It is a project whereby we are donate items for the kids and this charity organization will be giving out this little present for those kids as CNY present... anyone interested please contact me. Last day of collection is Friday =)

the feeling is so....

I having the ache over my body since sun... sian... sun and monday ache is due to the 1hour running in the shopping mall but then tue i went to play 1 hr of outdoor basketball, 1 hr of indoor basketball and 2 hours of indoor badminton and now i am having ache... the worst part is my lower arm muscle is giving the ache... it is to so.................

Anyway I enjoyed the 4 hrs games a lot ... really enjoyed my 6hours break in school =D

Haha... anyway, this week is the last week of add/drop and i havben even get my slot for ahss... what i am suppose to do??? sian....

I feel so old....

I suddenly feel so old... Haha... but then the main reason that i feel this way is because on the 16Jan, I have the 1st Tween Club @ Sengkang event which is my CCA (WSC) and we have this urban treasure hunt @ compass point... lol... so we are suppose to go in groups and find a total of 20 shops that the pics are taken from... so my group have 1 male and 1 female and me age all around 21 and also 3 kids all age 12. so you know la... kids are very ... so they run all the way... for 1 hour from the family service centre to the mall and run around in the mall and then back to the centre... after so many year of lack of exercise this is consider quite a good work out but then i think never cool down enough and i end up muscle aching from head to toe.... for my whole sunday and monday... i was pratically OMG i dun want to move... haha!!! but i still have to cause i have tuition on the sunday... haha another $45bucks earn!!! Yeah!!!

I am looking forward for another 2 lesson so i can collect my pay... cause i am super broke now... and i am going to get 180 once i get the pay.. haha

Week 1 in School

hmm.... Week 1 in school is not really that great as compare to the past few semester... cause i am having problem with the module that i need to take.... At first was thinking of taking 301,302,303,415 + 1 elective... but after the 1st lesson of the 415 the lecture told us a lot of stuff and making us all so dam worried about it... so end up abit feel like dropping... But after today de lesson i feel that it is not that bad after all but they all say that lets keep it 1st wait till tutorial 2 then see how... cause add/drop is till next sunday anyway and the appeal for AHSS de elective will only come out on friday.... seriously if i get both of my appeal i will either drop one and continue with 415 or take both and drop 415.... haha.... cause 415 i only worried about the project part la.... writing a program to compressed image or video all that... haha it sounded hard la... but i think it is not java... lol so should be better i can still do a bit but i am sure not strong de.... lol

anyway, lets see if i get AHSS 1st then say ba... cause both appeal that i submit right? is all over-rated de... one is 600% + overrated and the other is 8000%+ over rated... so if really can get hor will be dam heng liao lor... lol...
this yr a bit screw up also cause the notes that we buy are all wrong the auntie did not get the lastest notes and she started printing... oh no right??? no choice $5 plus wasted.... haiz.... tml need to go print myself.... =)

Hazi... and the worst part of everything is that rmb i got the cough be4 i go malaysia??? After the malaysia trip i went to see the doctor since i am not fully recovered yet... so i was given antibiotics that i have taken countless times... and assume that it will get better.... who knows.. yes indeed the cough get better but this time round i got allegy to the antibiotics... so i am covered with rashes for the past few days... at 1st i tot that it was the rashes that all my friends have developed after the trip... but on tue, their rashes all went down and yet mine is getting worst... so i suspect that it was the medication so i stopped it that night and went to see doc on wed and skip one of my lecture... and indeed it was allegy to antibiotics... i could have recovered much early cause after the rashes appeared, i had another 2 dose of the medication... luckily it did not get worst... lol only that it takes longer time for the rashes to recover and i am better now... i can see that the rashes is not so red liao... hope tml will be better cause doc say if by sat never recover must see her again.. i dun mind seeing her again cause she won't charged too x but then hor... the queue of her clinic is dam long de lor... i went at 7.30am despite her clinic opening at 8am and i got the queue number 3!!! and it is a weekdays... and i rmb the weekend that i went to see her hor... i went there at 8.05am and i got queue number 26!!! it is so hot la... till i very scared going there... lol hope i recover asap!!!

School Starts Tml

Time really flies... the 1 month long holidays is comming to an end in just another 3hrs... However, I am glad that i have the chance of enjoying myself to the max before a new semester starts. Although not fully recharged physically, but i am 100% recharged mentally... lol....
Cause for the previous few holidays, i have been always working till the holidays end so i ended up niether physically nor mentally recharge... so this time round is much much better... =)

Next sem i am taking 301, 302, 303, 415 as well as accounting... wee..... haha it is good that only 4 core 1 elective... but hope the core is not too siong to study.... lol

Counting down about 16hrs

Counting down to my trip to KL.... only 16hours left... haha checked in bag already packed but then hand carry one yet to be done... later need to double checked again for check in bag... lol...

Looking forward to the trip there =D. And Daddy is driving me to the airport... yeah!!! haha