Monday, December 27, 2010

Stressed

As the end of the year gets closer by the number of days, I feel that i am even more stressed!!! Not only I am stressed in CCA cause i trying to excel and give my best! I am stressed with the deadline of FYP getting closer as well... FYP seriously... I have no mood to do it... It is totally SUCKS!!! If only I can just spend a few hundreds $$ and score an A or A- for it, I will be more than willing to do it...

Well... Schools and CCA aside... I am stressed by BGR too.... Well... I am so busy with my work and He is clearing his leave... and I can get at least 1 msg or call form him everyday!!! This is too much!!! Well... Basically, those patterns that works for normal girls like your friends, brothers or cousin will not works for me... to a lot of girls out there a call/sms a day is too little... but as for me during my stressed period which is these 2 months till Jan2011 if i finished my FYP... It is too much!!! Well I know that he loved me... cause every single things i said he will buy it for me... but some of them is just a wants and not a needs... and this actually cause me to have even lesser topics to talk with him.... I dare not say Look! this is nice :) Cause if that is said out and it is within his limit he will buy it almost within the next few days/weeks...

Well... I dun know how can I tell him... Can we give each other more freedom??? Cause i know that it can hurts if your partner says that to you... I guess one of the main reasons why BGR always starts in Uni and always within Uni is because they find common time to study together.... Whenever the other parties have exam so do they... something like that... Well as for me... He will only keep telling me to take a break!!! Well I know that in poly i give you an impression of relax fellow... but in uni life is really SUCKS to the MAX!!! You can never ever understand how it feels inside me... From the "God" level in poly and now hitting hard in the ground like the "Shit" level...

Hazi.... Well for the past week i have been preparing for this CCA activities call the Healthy Lifestyle, Happy Living party for the kids... Well I am quite sad cause some of the kids from my center did not make it in the end. But I guess today is a fun filled day for kids as well as volunteers!!! Well Done to all! And it does lift my mood for that few hours when i see that everything is so successful!!!

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