What is the aim in life

Whenever I feel very tired out due to work, I would ask myself: "What is the aim in life?" Have anyone ever think of this qn? Well... There are many thoughts that will run through my mind whenever I look at this qn.

With so many thoughts, it makes things even more difficult for me... and after all that thinking and the conclusion is nothing..... It makes ppl feel very depressing... and very annoyed whenever it comes to this... and i think it is rather stupid qn to ask yourself... okie...

I am going to get myself a new phone =) what phone? No idea yet... cause the one i am aiming for seems to exceed my budgeting. Sometimes ppl looked at me working so hard they would be asking me things like: "you must have earn and save alot" But my final ans to them is: "Yes, I earn a lot but look at my saving... it is aways that low... even lower then those that are very good at money managing and stuff... oh well nvm... I will try to save after all it is all hard earned $.

Mood Swing due to work stressed

As the days of LDS is counting nearer, I start to feel the stress... as i have this stack of claim waiting for me to invoice them starts to pile up... and i was like =.=

Stressed out not only due to work but also some other problem like:
1. FYP what am i suppose to choose....
2. CCA hope that meeting will not clash with tuition
3. Hope that i can manage my tuition till end of the year...
4. What i am suppose to do with such stupid schedule on a weekdays...

Hazi... it is all my fault...
I can't even find time to destressed myself... my colleague are all asking me: "do you ever think/feel tired... " Right down in my heart: "Yes! I do" but then I will still say: "Hmm... still ok la.. got used to it liao... "

I dun know sometimes i just dun need to be so strong, I am a girl I can just find someone else shoulder to lean against and pour out all the unhappiness... but i found that i can't... I dun know why... I just cannot pass my own personal trap... I just cannot get out...

Finding a guy that is successful in his career and can let you lead a good life after married to him is every girls dream. But how many % can do that.... I dream to be staying in those landed housing and also have my own maid and stuff.. so i dun have to do house work i can just do those i like, for example cooking and i can leave those i dun like to the maid example washing and eating... lol as the person cooking i always ended up eating the least.... lol ....

Anyway... I hope min i will be able to afford a maid and a car... landed housing maybe in the mid 40's ...

I am just so TIRED

Recently, I have quited my Popular job. But then it not any easier for me. Currently i am holding 1 temp job which is at Siemens and also 2 tuition assignment which is 8hrs a week. Well, my siemens job can be boring but interesting as well... Boring as in get chase for stuff almost every day. But interesting cause i have a group of fun loving colleague.

Well, I still love my tuition not only does it pay well but it is also my passion i guess... whenever i need to go tuition i will feel very very tired. But then whenever i see the kids, they will lighten up my life... Teaching can be angry and tiring... but it can be full of achievement and fun. =)

Okie lets stop here for today... i shall update again....