Have i really tried my best???

I dun know what to say but then i just feel totally totally depressed after the 3 papers... out of the 5 papers that i have this semester, 3 of them i have foundation before in poly... and yet sad to say is that those 3 papers that i have taken 2 of them are what i learn in poly.

But then, i fail to score for both papers... Ya the result is not out yet but then i know it myself... how can you score when 75% of Electronic principle is left blank? and how can you score when 35% of ur Maths papers are blank and out of the 65% done, 20% is anyhow guessed....

I feel so down... I dun know....It is that i have not study hard enough or is it that the papers are really that hard... I know that during my 13 weeks in school i did not pay much attention but then i put in a lot of effort to study for my papers already... y is it that i still cannot do the papers.... I really dun know what should i do... In poly it was the 1st shot that boast up my confident and helps me to excel in poly... now entering the school with confident and yet now was in a totally stressed out mode... I have never tired that hard for my days in poly and i can score and do the papers in 1.5 hours even when 2 hours is given.... But in uni... 2 hours i used it fully and yet i cannot finished the papers... this is the 1st time in my life that 35% of the maths paper i left blank...It is so depressing...

After the papers i went out with my friends to breath a bit and came home at 9 plus... my mum ask where did i go? you got 1 paper today only why so late... I reply :"Having bad mood" then she say:"Exam cannot do lor? dun study properly la!" Y is it like that, i have tired my best even just now when i took a cab home the cab uncle very nice telling me dun be too upset over the papers... just try ur best.... Y others can tell me that and my mum always say the opposite....

I also want to do my best... I know the school fee is expensive and i also want to complete it fast and dun want to add on to dad burden but i just cannot... I really dun know should i continue to study a not even if i fail a module... Friends around me today have been joking and saying that next semester repeat again... But i dun know... am i really that type that can continue to study in uni??? Should i quit school??? this qn have been in my mind 3 weeks after the school start... till now 15 weeks over and it is still in my mind... in poly i only have the idea i dun like the course for less then 10 weeks and i gave up the idea and change to this course is interesting....

I dun know but i feel like quiting school and go into Dip in early childhood education... maybe that is a better course for me... I dun know... I am super super super stressed.... 2 more papers to go i dun know what will happen.... i guess monday i will go back to school.... cause Maylor says lab 9 is out but not for my class and he did mention that the rest should be in by monday. so i guess monday i will go back to school just to collect the paper i guess....