What is the aim in life

Whenever I feel very tired out due to work, I would ask myself: "What is the aim in life?" Have anyone ever think of this qn? Well... There are many thoughts that will run through my mind whenever I look at this qn.

With so many thoughts, it makes things even more difficult for me... and after all that thinking and the conclusion is nothing..... It makes ppl feel very depressing... and very annoyed whenever it comes to this... and i think it is rather stupid qn to ask yourself... okie...

I am going to get myself a new phone =) what phone? No idea yet... cause the one i am aiming for seems to exceed my budgeting. Sometimes ppl looked at me working so hard they would be asking me things like: "you must have earn and save alot" But my final ans to them is: "Yes, I earn a lot but look at my saving... it is aways that low... even lower then those that are very good at money managing and stuff... oh well nvm... I will try to save after all it is all hard earned $.

Mood Swing due to work stressed

As the days of LDS is counting nearer, I start to feel the stress... as i have this stack of claim waiting for me to invoice them starts to pile up... and i was like =.=

Stressed out not only due to work but also some other problem like:
1. FYP what am i suppose to choose....
2. CCA hope that meeting will not clash with tuition
3. Hope that i can manage my tuition till end of the year...
4. What i am suppose to do with such stupid schedule on a weekdays...

Hazi... it is all my fault...
I can't even find time to destressed myself... my colleague are all asking me: "do you ever think/feel tired... " Right down in my heart: "Yes! I do" but then I will still say: "Hmm... still ok la.. got used to it liao... "

I dun know sometimes i just dun need to be so strong, I am a girl I can just find someone else shoulder to lean against and pour out all the unhappiness... but i found that i can't... I dun know why... I just cannot pass my own personal trap... I just cannot get out...

Finding a guy that is successful in his career and can let you lead a good life after married to him is every girls dream. But how many % can do that.... I dream to be staying in those landed housing and also have my own maid and stuff.. so i dun have to do house work i can just do those i like, for example cooking and i can leave those i dun like to the maid example washing and eating... lol as the person cooking i always ended up eating the least.... lol ....

Anyway... I hope min i will be able to afford a maid and a car... landed housing maybe in the mid 40's ...

I am just so TIRED

Recently, I have quited my Popular job. But then it not any easier for me. Currently i am holding 1 temp job which is at Siemens and also 2 tuition assignment which is 8hrs a week. Well, my siemens job can be boring but interesting as well... Boring as in get chase for stuff almost every day. But interesting cause i have a group of fun loving colleague.

Well, I still love my tuition not only does it pay well but it is also my passion i guess... whenever i need to go tuition i will feel very very tired. But then whenever i see the kids, they will lighten up my life... Teaching can be angry and tiring... but it can be full of achievement and fun. =)

Okie lets stop here for today... i shall update again....

Update Update!!!

Recently seen a lot of update from my friends blog... but when school reopen everyone blog went dead... lol.... I guess it is common thing in NTU. You are always too busy with your school work... lolz...

Anyway, There is nothing much that happen... Started with a new tuition and found that teaching is really fun!!! And suddenly have the tot of going to NIE after i grad from NTU!!! I want to teach primary school kids and not yound adult in poly!!! Anyway, there is still 1yr 6months to go for me to make decission who knows that i might change my mind when the time get nearer?? lol...

Recently sign up for a gym and went there once... but i guess did not exercise for too long and got muscle ache the next day... next week will be going once or 2 more time then in July i will go more often i guess =).

Hmm... Recently i dun like office job i also dun like the popular job and feel like quiting liao... haha.... and i need more time for my student i guess cause she having PSLE in a few weeks time... lol ... gotta go!!! need to pack up and get ready for work

21 Days

It has been 21 days since my last off day.... or shall i say rest day since i did not have a job back than....

Well... lets me update about the popular book fair the last weekend 1st.

Sat --> Popular book feast is so so so empty!!! And ended up not much sales only manage to get $100plus nia...

But Sun the crowd was back and i manage to get $700plus sales and I was delighted but I was pissed off by Bitch I know it was rude to call someone by that name... but she really is.... She did nothing but only take the flyer to that customer and I manage to say until the customer buy the stuff and ended up she say it was her sales!!! WTF right?? But hopefully they can tell la... you see how can she close a sales of 279.50 if all her 3days sales was only like 50 or 80 or the most 135... come on la... face the world man....

NVM... then i had a good rest and started my week at siemens again and was kana chased by ppl for the issue of tickets and stuff.. Oh ya... not to mention that my contract was extended for another 4 days till end of the month... sian..... nvm..... Hopefully $ comes in fast... cause need to pay phone bill insurance bill and i want to buy my new phone!!! N97 mini!!!

Freak!!! Kill ME!!!

Lol... my leg is killing me... have been standing around 8hours ++ today was being send to expo for the popular fair as promoter... well... there is good and bad.. good is alot of $$ but bad is have to work harder... have been walking and standing around just only demo to customer can sit... so in the end i think total about 10Hours of standing... it is so bad... now my leg feel like jelly and i dun feel like moving or anything... lol.... anyway...

I dun care what ppl think about me but to me sales is very important else i won't work for weekend liao... cause...where the hell you find ppl work 7 days a week with average 8hours per day... it is really very very crazy... I am turning into old lady soon... lol... due to insufficent rest... lol.... Actually feel quite bad if to take ppl sales... but if you only and attract cust there you cannot close then you actually dun deserve it... to a few ppl i know you want us to close you try to talk to the customer... but i really dun like!!! I like to tacker them myself.... I really wants to....cause if more ppl are saying it makes the parent even more confused.... so dun come and disturb me it is actually the best help liao....

Tired....

Recently, the road in my life seems to have more up and down compare to the normal days... it is just so not smooth and making me very sick and tired of life... I tired to spend all my time on work... but then... it seems like a never ending process... Now i am not only physically drain at work but also mentally drain.. could not get to sleep at night and not wanting to wake up in the morning... it is just so sick... although the journey from home to office is just 30mins... but it seems so far far away when i am walking towards the office or MRT... However, the journey out of office to home just seems to be so short when the distance is actually the same....what can i say??? I dun like my current job because need to deal with the phone a lot and i dun like to talk on phone especially within an office... lol.... so most of the time i end up just by sending email....