Monday, January 5, 2009

A brand new start for a Brand new me?

Yes, today mark a brand new start in my uni life once again after a month break. Seriously i dun feel like going back to school actually... I am being taken back by the stressed that i will feel once school starts... i have enjoyed myself quite a lot recently and i dun feel like going back to school.

Anyway, i have taken back private tuition again. And it is my ex-student so i charged them rather cheap at $100 for 16hours of service.... I dun know what to say cause i have difficulties to getting her to concentrate cause she seems to have a lot of things to do. so i always will go to her house and shout for her... My mum scolded me for doing that but have she ever understand me....All i want is for her own good and is it wrong? I dun know if it is a right choice for me to take her back...cause i was could have earn $200plus with 16hours of same service.... and i dun have to shout or anything... i could happily set a time and you dun come is ur problem.... so why must i be suffering for all the scolding?? I am so puzzle now... Am i doing the right stuff... I know her childhood is very bad... but then the worst it is the more i want to push her cause i want her to study hard and have a wonderful and free and easy future is that wrong too? The older she grew the more things she likes to hide from the father... like tuition time... so in the end she was saying her dad wants her to go hospital and stuff... i dun know la... i feel so miserable....

Prehaps i really overdo it... i should just teach and dun care about anything else... I dun understand the dad also... yes you want ur child to be independent i understand but then she is in primary 6 this year can't you just let the maid do the stuff then? let her concentrate on her study. independent can be picked up after that when she gets older and older... nvm... prehaps must really speak to her dad and see how ba. hazi... dun think so much liao... gotta go to sleep liao.. tml is going to be a long long day...

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