Freak!!! Kill ME!!!

Lol... my leg is killing me... have been standing around 8hours ++ today was being send to expo for the popular fair as promoter... well... there is good and bad.. good is alot of $$ but bad is have to work harder... have been walking and standing around just only demo to customer can sit... so in the end i think total about 10Hours of standing... it is so bad... now my leg feel like jelly and i dun feel like moving or anything... lol.... anyway...

I dun care what ppl think about me but to me sales is very important else i won't work for weekend liao... cause...where the hell you find ppl work 7 days a week with average 8hours per day... it is really very very crazy... I am turning into old lady soon... lol... due to insufficent rest... lol.... Actually feel quite bad if to take ppl sales... but if you only and attract cust there you cannot close then you actually dun deserve it... to a few ppl i know you want us to close you try to talk to the customer... but i really dun like!!! I like to tacker them myself.... I really wants to....cause if more ppl are saying it makes the parent even more confused.... so dun come and disturb me it is actually the best help liao....

Tired....

Recently, the road in my life seems to have more up and down compare to the normal days... it is just so not smooth and making me very sick and tired of life... I tired to spend all my time on work... but then... it seems like a never ending process... Now i am not only physically drain at work but also mentally drain.. could not get to sleep at night and not wanting to wake up in the morning... it is just so sick... although the journey from home to office is just 30mins... but it seems so far far away when i am walking towards the office or MRT... However, the journey out of office to home just seems to be so short when the distance is actually the same....what can i say??? I dun like my current job because need to deal with the phone a lot and i dun like to talk on phone especially within an office... lol.... so most of the time i end up just by sending email....

The final Journey in a life....

Today, I rejected everything on my schedule and send my beloved neighbor for her final journey. Life is just so fragile...I am rather sad is because I treat her just like my grandmother. You know the feeling of a grandmother passed away. The pain is exactly that much.... Nothing lesser... As she lived in Kampong before so do I so we have been living the Kampong style for the pass 18 years of my life walking in and out of each other house easily... Imagine a grandmother that have gone through the sweet & sour in life with you for the past 18 years.... It is indeed painful.

Now that she have passed away i really dun know who to talk to.... She have always been my listening ears as i feel my parents nag at me too often till i dun feel like pouring out the sorrows in my life to them as they will never give me their listening ears...they always start saying something else once i hit a certain point...if they loss then they will end the conversion with yaya... you very smart then you go do lor ... What is this .....

Anyway today's final journey is a very very grand one... it is good as she like it that way.... Her coffin was carried by several young men rotating and we walk a distance of 1.2KM before we took the bus... it was one of the longest i have ever attended and not only that ... cause on the journey there were a slope... so you can imagine... how grand it was... walking 1.2KM....

Auntie... hope you like it. I really missed you a lot.... I missed all the jokes, your voice, your food and many many more.... Hope you settle well in the new place together with your beloved husband and son..... Farewell my dear Auntie.....

R.I.P

To my best neighbor always,

R.I.P

You will always be rmb for all the smiles and happiness that you inject into my life...

You are the only one that i can trust and pour my sorrows to .

Now that you have left me, but you will forever stand a place deep inside my heart.

Don't worry too much on your grand children.... I will rest assure that they will be in good hands...

I would try my best to help them out no matter in what ways....

R.I.P my beloved Neighbor aka Auntie aka Po Po

Hang it there!!! they need you....

Today, after knock off from work i reached home to and saw an ambulance at the car park and i am already praying hard hoping that it is not my neighbor... She has been critically ill for the past few months... but what i heard from my mum is that her son send her to TTHS this morning and now TTHS asked her to come back home to rest instead of the hospital... So after a while i went over... and my tears could not be held back the moment i saw her in the unconscious when her grandchildren and son call her also no responds.... My tears just flow like a tap... i try to control myself as much as possible but i just could not... She is just so nice... Although we are just neighbor, she often talk to each other and she is just like my real grandmother....

SO God!!!! Please... I please you.... dun take her away!!!! She is a good and kind person.... she dun deserve all these ... she deserve better life.... which she have not got it so please.... please let her recover.... she is the mental support of the whole family... please... please I please you to provide her with all the power and will to fight the cancer cells... and let her recover.... please....... i beg you.......

So tired!!!!

So tired!!! Yes i know it is only day 2 of my admin job but then.... i start to feel tired of my job liao... Currently the system not up yet... so i am just doing paper work.... which is filing nia... from 9 to 6 just do filing... so sian right??? Next week the system is up then i will be very sian.... cause need to help the 12 staff that i am taking care of to claim their medical expenses claim and help them to book air tickets all that... sian i very scared that it will be very hard cause i never try be4... hope that just need to use the email and not phone call cause i scared that i cannot catch what they are talking... hazi... quite surprise that Siemens got so many international staff... =)

Hmm... let me count how many job i will have

1. Temp admin (9am-6pm--> weekdays)

2. Pri 6 tuition (0930 - 1230 --> Sunday)

3. Pri 4 tuition (4hrs per week on weekdays)

4. Promoter ( 2pm - 9pm --> weekend)

5. Assessment editor (Freelance)

6. Community service (10am - 12.30pm --> Sat)

haha... it looks like very over..... hope that i can manage it welll .... Mandy Jia You Jia You!!! Look at the $$ behind the hard work and hopefully won't feel tired....

Life is just full of decisions....

Well life is just full of decision.... And a decision can also make you regret for life!!!

So when ever we are making any decision, be sure that you think for a longer time, dun regret after that....

Well... today i was given a decision that will affect my life for the next year,

decision 1: Vending Machine

decision 2: PC signal control function generator

This is the 2 topic given by prof lee for my FYP.... It will affect 10 AU and it will also affect 1 year of my life in NTU which is about 30% of my time in NTU!!!

Anyway these few days, there is a lot of decisions....

1. Take up new tuition assignment which i have already taken up ( waiting for parent to reply)

2. Take up new admin job.... (Still looking)

3. Help out as promoter (Confirm for weekend)

4. Go for WSC Camp (Already Rejected)

5. A lot more to do....

Hazi... hopefully all these will not affect my life too much.... :'(