What is my direction in life???

8th Dec 2011

2011-12-09T17:25:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, 8th December 2011, marked a very significant day of my life. The day was pretty fun filled, me and my fellow volunteers had a 4 hours gaming session together at play nation. Then we proceed on to Ang Mo Kio Family Service Centre, Volunteers appreciation nite. I was told that i would be receiving an award so i did dress up a little and tot that it was juz a normal award of maybe long service award. But never did i know, I was given the award of the year! It was titled Volunteer of the Year! I would say that I am super surprise.... there is so so many centre out there, amk, cheng sang, sengkang, and a few others... Not to mention that so many delicated volunteers as well... And I out run all of them and was given the award... It was really a shocking moments... It was indeed a moment that I would not forget for life! It is my first official award and it was such a big one. Of course i would like to delicate this award to all my fellow volunteers would have worked with me for the year. Thank you!

Feeling lost

2011-10-20T13:43:00.001+08:00

Nothing is worst then feeling lost... I dun know why but at this very moment my mind turn blank... I am at a very lost... lost in tots... It is just like my heart and brain are taken away... I feel that i have a very very heavy head... very very lost... In all sort of things..

Everyone is sick...

2011-10-14T16:36:00.000+08:00

Everyone is sick... Yes everyone...
I am dragging half dead ...
But still got countless tuition to conduct... I really wonder why I work so hard sometimes... For who?
Schedule getting screwed... Everything screwed... it is juz so irratating...

after working so hard at the end of the month i realiase i still have nothing left... no $ no anything... this is getting up my nerves... It is juz so irrating...

Staying Calm....

2011-09-26T14:11:00.000+08:00

Thank you for ppl out there that cared for me. I will learn how to love myself more... I will start getting more activite in social life and less activite in family life. I will only wake up when HE is out of the house and return home when he retired to bed. This will minize the amount of friction that is between us.

I will NO longer call him, I will NO longer talk to him. He will be invisible from now on. The only way to treat myself better is to treat him as an invisible person. I will no longer go home after everything is done... Even if i go home i will bath and eat dinner and return to my room as soon as i finished my dinner. I no longer want to talk to him. I would only treat him like my landlord. Someone that I dun know. Since he already changed. He is no longer the family member that i know of.

I know this is going to be unfair to my mummy, but I am at my end... I really don't want to interact with him anymore until he change his attitude. If he does not change his attitude, I would no longer call him. I would no longer acknowledge him. I know in my heart it is a truth that he is related to me and I cannot change this. I own him my life... I will take on the responsiblility, I will supply him with the $ that he always wanted. But I will no longer acknowlege that he is someone that I should pay respect or do work for him. I have had enough of him. It is not my responsibility to be like this. I wished that i can moved out and live on my own... and I know I soon will... Once I am financially independant... I should no longer work on my dream (MOE teaching) ... I should start working on my future... so that I am ready to move out of the house as soon as possible...

So from now on, I will be in my own world. 2 of my best friend will be with me. So the 3 of us will stay strong and make through this period. The 3 ppl are Me, Myself and I... Sad to say that but I think with this few best friends I will be leading a better life. I will start searching for a job. At the same time I would apply for MOE teaching. If i really got to study there, I would be staying in hall. I would not mind travelling from hall to my cca at sengkang but i will return back to hall after that. I would go home but that will be maybe once a month or the most twice. I know only mum will be sad but I have no choice. I would also stop celebrating their birthday for them. No more! But mummy, I will forever rmb yours. I promised.

I really wished I did not exist before

2011-09-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

I really wished that I did not exist before in this world. No one know when I am unwell until I seriously cannot make and went to see a doctor... What kind of family is this... Working 12hours a day for 6days a week.... And on the only rest day I still need to entertain the rubbish of you.... You are on your own business and you only work how many hours a day? 9 hours a day i am working under stress condition of result. and the other hours i am working under stressed condition of my student result... I really hope that i can find someone whom i can lean on and cry my heart out...

If it is so difficult for you then why have me in the first place... I should not even exist as I am worthless... In the eyes of my student's parents they tot i saved their child. But I feel so empty so worthless... Do I really worth staying in this world? Am i just someone extra that is wasting the resources? Wasting the food? I feel so worthless...

Maybe going to the other world like my uncle is a better choice... At certain point of time, I feel my heart ache... I really wonder is it heart attack or something serious. I would wonder if it is serious issit it good? cause this world there is nothing that i can't let go. Friends, Parents, Brothers they will live their own life sooner or later... so i am back to the empty shell... the empty shell that is alone. Being alone in this world that i still need to deal with so many stress and worries.. I must well go to the other world there might not have stress.... At least over there ppl who are once a friend rmb me...

How many times i have lapsed into the state of depression how many ppl know.... The answer is zero... I may looked normal but how much i struggled to get through did ur know it? the answer is again no... I dun feel the loved.... No one in this world loved me... so why am i in this world? Should have just take the courage and leap off a building or like others leap into the water... at least i will be in loving memory of others....

But for the time being i won't do anything like that... I need to at least finished the project on hands... TCS Finale and also my students exam.... After everything is settle by the end of the year... I would be free... free to go anywhere i want to... a vacation or find my grandma.... that will be decided when things get settled. Even if i go find my grandma i dun want to trouble anyone... So i will choose a way that will not bring others the trouble.

A wonderful 23rd Birthday

2011-09-25T21:29:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I had a wonderful 23rd birthday! The kids celebrated my birthday with by each drawing or writing a card. Thanks kids! Loved TCS 2011 always!

Hectic week ahead!!!

2011-09-20T18:36:00.001+08:00

Well I have survived my iap and I have reached the half way marked of it. Well things are still the same doing some useless stuff but the amount of it is flooding in. So basically less boring for now. But I still like my 6-10pm life more. It includes tuition and volunteering service :D Well ppl are asking me: "Why are you still going volunteering service when you are so busy??" Well my ans are simple... I just want to see them smile. Their smile is worth a million $. Or u can say I enjoy the process of leading and also the process of teaching. :) Being a teacher is my dream job since young. But the road towards MOE was utterly difficult.... Failing to passed my O's level EL is a terrible mistake that blocked me all the way... If I would have passed it during first attempt in yr 2004, I am sure I would not be where I am today. Never did I know that a exam 6 years back are still affecting my life.... Hopefully the next application is feb could bring me more luck.

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The worst mid-autumn festival ever!

2011-09-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

I celebrated 23 mid autumn festival ever since birth. I used to enjoyed it so much cause I get to play with fire and sparkers. But this year, it is the worst mid autumn festival in 23 years of my life. On such a wonderful night where family get together and eat moon cake and drink tea while the children get together to have lots of fun...

My beloved uncle left us... Uncle, you might have left us but the memory of you will never fate off. Well yes I get to see all my family members but then... It is juz too much, my grandmother just left us like 4 months ago and now my uncle... 2011 is really a very very very bad year.... T_T

R.I.P Beloved Uncle

2011-09-13T13:55:00.002+08:00

This post is to marked the end of my beloved uncle life. He stay so just 2 storey above me and took great care of me since i was young. I still remember staying over at his house was so nice. When i wake up in the morning, Uncle would have already made me my milk or breakfast. So when i was young i used to call him uncle daddy cause he really took great care of me and i really apprieciated all the effort that he put into being part of the most wonderful day in my childhood days.

Uncle, we all know that you have suffered all these years and now finally you are free to go. Please take great care of yourself. The fond memory of you would be forever embedded in my heart. Thank you for all the loved you have shown on me. I Love You. R.I.P

I am Half-way there!!!

2011-09-12T09:42:00.001+08:00

This week marked the halfway mark of my intership with Diamler South East Asia Pte Ltd. Well generally work here are still ok. But as usual i still don't like cause there are stupid people around... I am just a student I also won't be there to snatch ur rice bowl... Why can't you treat me nicely? Why must your still poke me on my back? It just does not make any sense can?

Well enough of those sickening people out there... Generally this weekend was kind of fun but at the same time tiring... On sat (as usual), I went to TCS. The number of kids attended the session was so many!!! End up we have a shortage of volunteers. lol... Anyway after TCS, we rushed down vivo city to attend FOC freshman orientation camp! It was so so fun!!! Well the after effect of fun is muscle ache all over... lol i think i am getting old liao... lol should really find some time for regular excercise else my muscles will start aching here and there... lol... okie so much of that i should get back to the boring work liao...

A very very Busy Sept

2011-09-09T09:15:00.002+08:00

I am so going to have a super busy sept. Looking at my schedule for sept it seems like i only have 2 days free up till now...

This sat will be FOC orientation camp =) follow by a sunday tuition....
Next Sat will be TCS 1st session with 50% new volunteers. then tuition in the evening...
Next Fri will be TCS meeting. sat will be TCS and i am considering going to help out a road show but it is my birthday as well... so I wondering should i go...and push my tuition to sun as well.

And there goes my sept weekends....
Hazi... I sometime wondering why i work so hard? Maybe because i dun like to be home... when i am home all i see was mummy busy with Housework that she keeps nagging... and then daddy juz keeps smoking, watching tv and play with mobile game...

Recently, at times i find that i have breathing difficulties... wondering if it is the stress i have been through that keeps me suffocating... Everyone might think that wow... ur time is so packed... But to me it is a kind of enjoyment... Yes, I might be tired with all the work but at times i really enjoyed it... Lets take a look at my normal schedule...

Mon: Work 9-6pm, Tuition 7.15-9.15pm
Tues: Work 9-6pm, Volunteering 7.15-9.15pm
Wed: Work 9-6pm, Tuition / volunteering 7.15-9.15pm
Thurs: Work 9-6pm
Fri: Work 9-6pm, Tuition 7.15-9.15pm
Sat: Volunteering 10-12.30pm, Tuition 2.30-4.30pm
Sun: Free day...

Well if there is no friends gathering/meeting for cca/other important stuff, then i will have 1 free day for myself. Issit it juz great. I know some ppl might say it is stupid... if i am so sian why do i still do volunteering work? it is juz so zz.... Anyway, I think i lead a life that is very packed and very happy that I can lead this kind of life. Yes, no doubt it can be tiring but the enjoyment is also great. I always feel proud to tell ppl hey i am doing volunteer work, wanna join me?

Week 10 Day 2

2011-09-06T09:50:00.002+08:00

Well well well... It has been 10 weeks since i start my internship with this german mnc. Well overall life in my department is 1 word: Slack... Well this can be both good and bad. Good: slacking at work and getting paid. Bad: My poor report will be super thin...

However, i dun like the people here. People in cetain department is just so brainless... as i was sending out email for asking them to sign attached so that we can replace their old laptop. It is juz super stupid they go one big round and started asking people to brief me what the laptop is used for. Why the hell i need to know how u use ur laptop u throw on the floor i also don't care! I just want u to sign and return the form to me... Freak right?

Anyway work here is rather sian... repeating the same thing again and again and keep seeing more and more stupid ppl having or doing stupid stuff... Well I will not say that i am very very clever but certain things are just common sense... Juz finished a team meeting and it was like OMG so many ppl no sense can be manager... my GM said even a intern knows that when we can account invoice then all of them should be down as she can be a manager... lol I know it is impossible but still it is true! lol

Okie so much of complains, I shall get back to work... i think i will have a very very busy month....

Interns are the most miserable ppl in the world...

2011-08-23T09:03:00.002+08:00

Yes! Interns are the most miserable ppl in the whole working industry.... Cause... They are not treated like humans... they are treated like robot. They are just required to work 8 hours a day even if there is no job for them... They must try to act busy cause it is part of their work... They are not allowed to have leave, they are not allow to have public holidays when it falls on sat. WTF is that! Sorry for using the F word... But the freaking company juz dun treat me as a human...

I need to work 8 hours a day and out of that 6 hours are spend stoning... It is juz rubbish... NVM about that and in 5 months of work they expect no leave and no PH! It is juz so freaking stupid!!!

arh!!! I am getting more and more upset with the way this mnc works... It is the worst MNC. They dun treat their staff well... It is a rubbish mnc... it is juz a sucky mnc... so never ever think that mnc are good cause not all is the case...

Rotting at work

2011-08-08T17:52:00.002+08:00

Well.... For the past 2 days at work was totally sucky... Why? Cause there is nothing to do... Hazi... I only send out maybe 4-5 emails everyday and it will be only take at most 2hours of working hours and the other 6hours i spend them on surfing the web and stuff... Well when i find the mood i will do my IAP report... It is so tiring.. but now i am feeling better cause my colleague helpped me to seal up the air con hole with masking tape and my seat now are more comfi... Thanks!

However, I still feel very boring... I dun know why too!!! Last time i work at ADC as project executive, I also work in a desk bounded environ but I was much happier working there... Why??? I also not sure... I hope i can find back why i like the job and put it into my current job... Cause when i like a job, i can work on it 24/7 and yet feel happy... but now i only spend 8hours per day and 5 day per week and i am sicked and tired of my job liao... what can i do to make life more interesting?? Hazi... I rather have a busy work scope that i can constantly work on rather than to act busy.... which is not what i want to... Hazi....

Wish me good luck!

2011-08-07T23:52:00.002+08:00

Well... Why do i need luck? Cause i am going for Post Grad Dip in Edu program interview this coming thus 11Aug. I really hope that i can get in. It is a track that i always want to go =)

Well... I wanted to go into teaching cause i have the passion to teach. I like to see the children/teenager grow from no where to they listen to me and advance in their studies.

I read the forum that the interviewer are generally fine. but the qn they ask will be very hard... lol

Week 4 Day 2

2011-07-26T09:25:00.002+08:00

I am once again declared to have lost to the Flu Bug in the office... after (3X5)+1 = 16days....

I really dun understand... Am i really that weak that i will 100% suffer from the Flu Bug when i am working in air-con area about 7-8hours a day??? When i was in poly, 10 weeks IAP and I suffer from flu bug 2 times... this time round 22 weeks IAP what should I do?? Anyway to keep the Flu bugs away??? Yesterday, I felt tired... Today, I am not feeling that tired but I am offically declared down with Flu... Well hopefully it is a come and go and it will be okie by tml... But from my past few years Flu experience, the chances of that happening is only 20%. Well but there is still hope and hopefully can recover really soon... I am drinking the chinese flu medication and i am going to wack the clarinese later... I am so going to wastons later to get my medication... GOD, you either get me really ill that i can skip work with MC or you make me recover really really soon...

Another thing that pissed me is my bf. He said he wants to quit school cause his work is very busy with his work... I really want to know did he even think of our future... If he dun get his certification, I really dun see the future... My parents are some how not very happy about him not in local uni. So inorder to save the relationship he must really work hard to at least get his degree. If you can't take the harshness now... How can you take the harshness that will come with even higher impact at a later stage of life... Well... I already trash out things with him via msn and ask him to think over it... Hopefully he can really carry on with studies and dun give up too easily... I also put in alot of hard work inorder to reach the last stage of my uni life... So I hope that my partner will be able to do so too... so that next time no matter how tough things is we can tacker them together and i will not be alone in tacking matters.

Hazi... I shall end here and get back to work... although i dun really have the mood to do so... lol

Update! Update! Update!

2011-06-28T00:54:00.003+08:00

It has been a while since the last update. Oh well generally was busy as usual and also feeling lazy... lol... Anyway, I shall update from the day i received my final EXAM result from NTU.

I was generally happy with the result overall, I got 3.8 for this semester which is really a high score for me. But it is still not enuff for me to get my 3rd class T_T, I still need to get an A for my IAP. Well, it is not too difficult but it is not too easy as well. Therefore, I will try my very best for the next 22 weeks to get my A. I really hope that I can do it!

Well, then followed by is NTU June Summer Camp. Generally, I was happy cause the event was a success! My centre has the most participants for both days =D and all the kids and teenager that went for the camp enjoyed themselves a lot! Well after the 1 month plus of hard work, all the tirdness disappear after seeing all the smiling faces of the kids and teenager and elderly.

Next will be my rotting days at home.. After the June summer camp, I was stucked at home rotting... only went for 2 hours + of tuition each day. Now, I am looking forward to my IAP starting date which is next Monday! Daimler HERE I COME!!!! lol

Exam Result

2011-06-08T01:08:00.002+08:00

Well in another 23 hours or so my exam result will be release. Well i am not hoping much for my result, I just pray hard that i can passed all my subject can le... I want to clear all my subject and dun want to add a burden to my daddy. Daddy is getting older and older... Although he is rather irraiting that he is behaving like a kid and the negative stuff that he always says to mummy. I wonder if he knows all that he said was hurtful or not...

Well I just pray that I passed all my subject this semester and daddy de leg recover faster. It really heart broken to see him in pain every night... I buy him a lot of products in hope for his good health...recovery of his leg. Hope that the $80 plus i spend today will make him feel better and he recover faster.

Well other then worrying for my exam result, I am stoning at home and feel like gonna rot already... Just started a new tuition today but the kid was alright but the address was far... lol... But he is my ex-sup de son so what can i do? I feel pai seh if i dun take him in. But i hope that we will see improvment by his ca2 ba. Although i not very keen to teach him all the way from p4 to p6 but still hope he can make improvements.

Hazi... that is about all for now... Back to my count down and drama.

Farewell my beloved grandma

2011-05-07T00:52:00.005+08:00

This post is to create memory of my beloved grandma. Although it is only my maternal grandma but i really loved her for what she is... No matter is it the grandma that is healthy and prepare dishes for me when i visit her or is it the grandma that is slightly ill and talk like a children.... I really miss her alot! I was still thinking of every year can cook her favourite pineapple tarts for her every year after year... But never do i know that this year is the first and last year i am going to bake pineapple tarts for her. I really cannot forget the smile she give me when she was happily eating pineapple tarts bake by me.... Grandpa why are you treating me like this.... I prayed that you dun take Grandma away for so many hours... But why are you still bringing her with you....

Grandma please take care and walk well, remember to find Grandpa up there....

Okie, back to yesterday:

I tot that i could study 416 for 1 day and then go down to temple help grandma pray and then go to TTSH find grandma today after my paper.... Who knows my uncle was admitted to TTSH as well due to lungs infection also. so i have to go down to TTSH as they say my uncle condition was very bad and might go anytime...

But i was still happy cause i manage to finish and understand my 416 fully but then... When the doctor call me 15mins before my exam TTSH doctor call me and said that grandma got even more ill overnight and suffer heart attack last night everything seems to fly away from my brain... I was totally blank minded.... I could rmb nothing that i study when i awaits the start of the exam... I was trying to put up a smile infront of everyone so that i will not burst out crying...

To act as if nothing happens... I wanted to join my friends for lunch but my brother call and say grandma is critical so i skipped my lunch and rush to TTSH in a cab. I was there the whole afternoon and tot that the condition was stable and I tot after the last blood presure test i would leave for my tution but then the last blood presure test was bad and i cancel my tuition and stuff and stay with grandma for her last breath.... I know she suffer alot but the grandma i see on monday was still lively and i tricked her to eat just like a big baby... she smile at me and commented that the food is nice making me feel happy too.... But i really missed her now....

R.I.P grandma

Final Semester of Studies in NTU

2011-04-12T00:01:00.002+08:00

Well... Time flies... It has been 6 semester since I first step into NTU. It is also my last semester having exam in NTU if everything goes successfully. Well this semester other than project, it is a slightly more relaxing semester for me. As I only took 4 modules and 2 of them are elective, 2 of them are core. The other 2 are elective and both of them i have a interest in it so i think will not score that badly and should be able to secure at least a B in these module of course i am hoping for a A- la... but keeping my finger crossed and hope that everything will go well... Thanks to the YOG2010, Now my Exam clashes with the primary school ones and my CCA have to continue and my tuition also need to continue as a result i really don't know how well can i do it.

Well, at least after this thursday i touch a bit more on my FYP and i am going to relax and start mugging for my Core and hopefully can cover all the topics that have taught for the past 12 weeks in 2 weeks... dots... i know it is abit too rush but hope everything will go well this sem and i need to clear all and thats it! I am off to IAP and finally graduation!!! Which i am really looking forward to it!

Stressed

2010-12-27T22:34:00.003+08:00

As the end of the year gets closer by the number of days, I feel that i am even more stressed!!! Not only I am stressed in CCA cause i trying to excel and give my best! I am stressed with the deadline of FYP getting closer as well... FYP seriously... I have no mood to do it... It is totally SUCKS!!! If only I can just spend a few hundreds $$ and score an A or A- for it, I will be more than willing to do it...

Well... Schools and CCA aside... I am stressed by BGR too.... Well... I am so busy with my work and He is clearing his leave... and I can get at least 1 msg or call form him everyday!!! This is too much!!! Well... Basically, those patterns that works for normal girls like your friends, brothers or cousin will not works for me... to a lot of girls out there a call/sms a day is too little... but as for me during my stressed period which is these 2 months till Jan2011 if i finished my FYP... It is too much!!! Well I know that he loved me... cause every single things i said he will buy it for me... but some of them is just a wants and not a needs... and this actually cause me to have even lesser topics to talk with him.... I dare not say Look! this is nice :) Cause if that is said out and it is within his limit he will buy it almost within the next few days/weeks...

Well... I dun know how can I tell him... Can we give each other more freedom??? Cause i know that it can hurts if your partner says that to you... I guess one of the main reasons why BGR always starts in Uni and always within Uni is because they find common time to study together.... Whenever the other parties have exam so do they... something like that... Well as for me... He will only keep telling me to take a break!!! Well I know that in poly i give you an impression of relax fellow... but in uni life is really SUCKS to the MAX!!! You can never ever understand how it feels inside me... From the "God" level in poly and now hitting hard in the ground like the "Shit" level...

Hazi.... Well for the past week i have been preparing for this CCA activities call the Healthy Lifestyle, Happy Living party for the kids... Well I am quite sad cause some of the kids from my center did not make it in the end. But I guess today is a fun filled day for kids as well as volunteers!!! Well Done to all! And it does lift my mood for that few hours when i see that everything is so successful!!!

Freedom or Not??

2010-12-23T00:47:00.003+08:00

This a good qn to ask myself... I have finished my exam in NTU for this semester... But then there is still FYP to go... Well for fyp only the GUI partly done... and the hardware wise... I can only say that nothing have been done other then buying the chips...I am really very very behind time... What should i do??? I know i need to get cracking and i need to submit in 1 month time... it is so so short...

Well... Now i am going to concentrate to do the party on 27th... after that I will start doing the FYP liao... Mandy Jia You!!! Jia You!!! U can do it de.... Well as for the exam... It is generally not too well done... but I hope that i can pass everything... Mandy Jia You!!!!

Exam!!!

2010-12-10T18:42:00.002+08:00

Tml is the 1st paper in the 5th Semester of NTU. Well if the paper are like the past 2 years I am confident that I can do at least 50% of the paper... I am praying hard that there is as many calculation as possible... Well as for next week de paper I do not have any confident that I could do well or at least clinch a pass in the module... I am trying my best to concentrate in the exam however, I could not do that... I am just not in the mood to do that... And I am simply in the holiday mood.... What can i do... All I can say is "Thanks to YOG! We are delay by 1 month and now here we are so rushed in content & exam... We are having exam in SAT!!! And just 1 day before Christmas that we finished our last paper...." So are you saying that we are all going suffer once again??? Cutting short of the holidays to 1 month from Christmas... is just as good as not having a holidays... at 1st i have 1.5 months to do my FYP and now I am only left with 1 month to complete this stupid project!!! WTH right??? Hazi....

Low Chance != No Chance

2010-12-03T22:34:00.003+08:00

Hmm... for non programmers out there the title != means Not Equal To.

Well why do I say that cause today i got back my professional communication result already.

But then it is only 80% and I did missed my target score which is A by quite a gap... However, there is still 20% so I still have a chance of getting A-....

I really prayed hard for that A- cause it is my only hope. Having a A- for professional communication just looks good on the transcript. Well, now My Resume and Cover Letter got A-. But I screwed up my presentation abit and only got B for it... Now is the 20% that is on the hands of the prof. So I am praying dam hard to get as much as possible for the 20%.

Counting down 2 weeks to EXAM

2010-11-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

Time really past very very flies... Here I am counting down to my 5th Exam in NTU... It seems only like yesterday that i first step into NTU... All the ups and downs that i have been through with my pals in school are such wonderful times... They are a group of wonderful people who are always there to provide me with all the support. Without them Uni life is just so so boring...

I must get myself to studies as of tml else there is not enough time liao... T_T

Hopefully I am able to score slightly better this sem and hopefully I can grad with a 3rd class by the end of next year... Although I know that 0.2 is a huge gap and i need to strive super super hard to pull up this 0.2 gap but i will try my best to strive that.

Let all Jia You for this coming Exam all the Best to all and Me....

Busy... Busy... Busy

2010-11-06T21:40:00.003+08:00

This sem is a Busy Busy Busy sem... I am Zero% motivated to do my studies related stuff...
So things are piling up... like Advance network quiz...Prof com de presentation and fyp... which is one of the part that i am most worried about... hazi... but what can i do... I am not good at time management... zzz

Well... well... lets update abit more...
For the past few weeks, I found that we have this activity that i did with my fellow mates after Friday night classes which is to eat dinner together!!! And best of all it is outside school!!! =D I loved the last round where we have frog porridge... It was nice... It was my 1st time eating that ... although not the 1st time eating the frog... used to eat alot of frog leg when i was younger...

Hmm.. other then that... TCS (Tweens Club @ Sengkang) the club that i volunteered for as a tutor finally came to an end on the 30th Oct!!! It was really a fun day for all of us that is there. =D

Next up, It is my student's result I was so happy for him... finally he did a breakthrough and score 4 Band 1. The mum was so happy!!! I feel happy for him too! It was his 1st time scoring 88 in maths and 94.5 in science... before tuition he was only <80 for maths and science forever did not hit the 90mark.... so this time round it is considered a breakthrough for both subject that i taught him and i was happy for him =D

Yesterday night i went to play nation with my poly mates and it was dam fun!!! We played a total of 4.5 hours for wii.. and i have stiff arms now... lol too long never excercise and yesterday did too much i guess.. lol... It was fun!!!

Lastly, Today was dam lucky.... An sms woke me up at 9am... and i was like OH SHIT!!! Cause i have a volunteers training class at social service training institude which is about 45 mins journey if via train... and the course starts at 9.30am... zzZZ... So I tot hazi.. spend some $$ and take cab down since not peak hour cause SAT... who knows when i cross the road my ex-student de daddy saw me and gave me a free ride all the eay there!!! So good right??? lol... IN the end manage to get there at 09.30am... =D The course i think was okie but quite tiring as it was from 09.30 to 05.30pm (>.<) Well but manged to stay awake throughout and got my certificate. =)

Thats all for now!!! It is time for sleep tml will be the day to study!!!

Blog Design

2010-11-06T21:36:00.002+08:00

Well... Thanks everyone who post comments on the chat box... Bascially, I did not quite understand what ur mean by blog design... cause i basically use the templete provided by blogspot here as my basic design and expanded it to 3 section via HTML coding that i editied myself a few years back...

If your mean the HTML coding do let me know ur email add so that i can email it to u.
=) Cheers!!!

What is wrong with this world!!!

2010-10-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

Ever since young, I know that life is never fair... But today, I feel that life is totally SUCKS!!!

Ppl who do not even attend lectures and can pass the quiz and me who attended the lecture almost 90% and yet failed the quiz badly..... less then 30%....

Well, friends around me says i looked cool and normal with that result but inside me I am not!!! I am angry with myself for not starting to prepare earlier but I am more angry with the unfairness... Well although i am not a very result orientated person but i am still feeling dam low.... as i need to worked super hard in order to get and A for my exam... It is so so so difficult with so many things to manage as well.....

Today, I got very pissed by one of my project mates. Yes, he is very good in software and hardware. He did a good job when it comes to project related to this scope... But if you do other project with him you will not be able to tahan.... We are in the middle of discussion for our assignment 2 and then he suddenly ask about details of assignment 1, well nothing wrong with that cause it need to be submitted tml. so being kind I told him the details. Just as soon as he got the details he replied: "sorry guys, gtg meeting my friend" I was piratically saying WTF to myself... he thinks that meeting his friends is more important then submitting something that need to be done and submitted tml and it is worth like 10% of his score.... well he have another 30% to work with if his attitude con't i dun know when will i explode and scold ppl....

Well... I just hope that everything will starts to turn better and I am going to work like never before during this recess week... need to complete all my tutorials all over again... and also fyp... need to build up the circuit in recess week.... There is just too many things to do... God please give me 48hours a day instead of the normal 24... Or maybe let me able to work 24 hours non-stop for a few days....

Keeping my fingers crossed nothing out of expectation will pop out during this recess week....

22nd Birthday!!!

2010-09-24T23:58:00.003+08:00

Firstly, I want to say a big thank you!!! to all my friends and family for the wishes =D

okie... actually my birthday celebration kicked off last sunday 19th Sept!!! Which is the same day as my 21st birthday party!!!

Okie back to the topic, we kicked off with a dinner with my favourite dishes which i go and choose and buy myself =) Then, to my surprise bro acutally buy a cake for me!!! and it is Ice-cream cake!!! lol.... Normally I used to order my own cake u see.. lol and was thinking this yr different dun want cake liao... since last year de so big!!! lol ...

next celebration is on the 22th Sept whereby i cooked 1 soup and 2 dishes for my family as dinner =D so happy that they like my cooking =D

Lastly on the actual day, 24th Sept!!! All my friend's facebook message as well as sms!!! thank you so so so much!!!

oh and also a birthday surprise held by FOC committee 2010/11. Haha... this is the 1st time i have a birthday celebration in public and school .... so shocked... but it is a plesant surprise. Thank you so much!!! Love you lots

and till today i still received sms from my 1st tuition kid. it have been 4 years since i last tot him and yet he still rmb today is my birthday... I am so touched!!! All the best for your O's Level soon!!! Jia you Jia you!!!

I want it BACK!!!

2010-09-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

I want is back!!!

I want my caring daddy to come back... i still rmb in sec 3 when daddy fall down from the roof top and broke his right leg yet he still drive me to school every morning...

When i was back in poly if i never reach home by 08.30pm he will call and ask me to wait for him in school he will come and picked me up... and drive me to school whenever it is 0800 lesson....

I really really missed those days.... Now my daddy turn into a totally different person... he only know how to ask me to help him type his bills, quotation and his work related stuff....

Does not even care about me anymore... Yesterday, When i was in pain for my leg.... due to certain reasons i also dunno ... and yet he did not even ask a thingy... and ask me to type his bill for him... I am not expecting anything more... Just 1 sentence and I will be happy and glad.... Just 1 sentence : "What happen? How is it?" Is it that difficult... I am totally disappointed by his action... no care and concern.... I no longer feel the loved that he used to shower me with.... I am in a lost in a sudden.... It is so.... so.... disappointed...

Hopefully, my leg will recover in these few days... which i think is hard also... cause CCA needs to walk around alot ... and i am surviving on my ankle support... which is just of no use... it is still very painful... but strange is that i did not sprain my ankle... it is just that i walk a distance too far for the whole day i guess... but how come... this time is so bad... that is still in pain ... last time it only lasted 1 day.... I am so so puzzled.....

A Brand New Begining

2010-08-31T18:21:00.003+08:00

It is the start of a new Semester and also a brand new Year.
Always hoping things to good but it is always not the case.

Hazi... Trying hard to concentrate in lecture but it is always a failure... lol...
I just fail to concentrate... lol...

Plus the timetable this sem is totally sucks like HELL!!!

Finding a Balance

2010-08-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

Yup, I am trying very hard to find a balance point between work and play... but it seems like work is never ending and it keeps pile up and up... so when is the day i can strike a balance between work and play???

I really dun know... it seems like i start to have social breakdown... I stopped going out with my friends for just chit chat and talk rubbish... It is a long long time... I have been going out only when needed to for Meeting all that... in order words unless 100% needed if not you will not see me... ...

I hope i can strike a balance point soon................................................

Busy... Busy... Busy

2010-08-15T21:44:00.002+08:00

Well well well... It has been a busy busy busy months for me... working hard to earn $ but forget about social life.

How i wished i am still the innocient girl i am when i was in poly year 1, without social life and not that much of pressure. Ever since in poly it changed my life esp from a person that head to school for lesson and headed home after lesson to a girl that hang out with friends almost every weekend... Well it is good at least i have friends to talk to but also bad as it makes me very very tired...

Working hard for my life is very important and since i just got confirm in a position i shall not get into too much other stuff... it is just too much for me...School + work +CCA. I used to be able to plan time very very well.. but now... look at it, it is in total mess.... thanks a lot for the stupid school that have lesson in the afternoon and evening only.. Feel like taking a PT degree than a full time one... hopefully when school reopen the prof will change the stuff... hazi...

What is the aim in life

2010-07-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

Whenever I feel very tired out due to work, I would ask myself: "What is the aim in life?" Have anyone ever think of this qn? Well... There are many thoughts that will run through my mind whenever I look at this qn.

With so many thoughts, it makes things even more difficult for me... and after all that thinking and the conclusion is nothing..... It makes ppl feel very depressing... and very annoyed whenever it comes to this... and i think it is rather stupid qn to ask yourself... okie...

I am going to get myself a new phone =) what phone? No idea yet... cause the one i am aiming for seems to exceed my budgeting. Sometimes ppl looked at me working so hard they would be asking me things like: "you must have earn and save alot" But my final ans to them is: "Yes, I earn a lot but look at my saving... it is aways that low... even lower then those that are very good at money managing and stuff... oh well nvm... I will try to save after all it is all hard earned $.

Mood Swing due to work stressed

2010-07-27T20:18:00.002+08:00

As the days of LDS is counting nearer, I start to feel the stress... as i have this stack of claim waiting for me to invoice them starts to pile up... and i was like =.=

Stressed out not only due to work but also some other problem like:
1. FYP what am i suppose to choose....
2. CCA hope that meeting will not clash with tuition
3. Hope that i can manage my tuition till end of the year...
4. What i am suppose to do with such stupid schedule on a weekdays...

Hazi... it is all my fault...
I can't even find time to destressed myself... my colleague are all asking me: "do you ever think/feel tired... " Right down in my heart: "Yes! I do" but then I will still say: "Hmm... still ok la.. got used to it liao... "

I dun know sometimes i just dun need to be so strong, I am a girl I can just find someone else shoulder to lean against and pour out all the unhappiness... but i found that i can't... I dun know why... I just cannot pass my own personal trap... I just cannot get out...

Finding a guy that is successful in his career and can let you lead a good life after married to him is every girls dream. But how many % can do that.... I dream to be staying in those landed housing and also have my own maid and stuff.. so i dun have to do house work i can just do those i like, for example cooking and i can leave those i dun like to the maid example washing and eating... lol as the person cooking i always ended up eating the least.... lol ....

Anyway... I hope min i will be able to afford a maid and a car... landed housing maybe in the mid 40's ...

I am just so TIRED

2010-07-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

Recently, I have quited my Popular job. But then it not any easier for me. Currently i am holding 1 temp job which is at Siemens and also 2 tuition assignment which is 8hrs a week. Well, my siemens job can be boring but interesting as well... Boring as in get chase for stuff almost every day. But interesting cause i have a group of fun loving colleague.

Well, I still love my tuition not only does it pay well but it is also my passion i guess... whenever i need to go tuition i will feel very very tired. But then whenever i see the kids, they will lighten up my life... Teaching can be angry and tiring... but it can be full of achievement and fun. =)

Okie lets stop here for today... i shall update again....

Update Update!!!

2010-06-19T12:44:00.002+08:00

Recently seen a lot of update from my friends blog... but when school reopen everyone blog went dead... lol.... I guess it is common thing in NTU. You are always too busy with your school work... lolz...

Anyway, There is nothing much that happen... Started with a new tuition and found that teaching is really fun!!! And suddenly have the tot of going to NIE after i grad from NTU!!! I want to teach primary school kids and not yound adult in poly!!! Anyway, there is still 1yr 6months to go for me to make decission who knows that i might change my mind when the time get nearer?? lol...

Recently sign up for a gym and went there once... but i guess did not exercise for too long and got muscle ache the next day... next week will be going once or 2 more time then in July i will go more often i guess =).

Hmm... Recently i dun like office job i also dun like the popular job and feel like quiting liao... haha.... and i need more time for my student i guess cause she having PSLE in a few weeks time... lol ... gotta go!!! need to pack up and get ready for work

21 Days

2010-06-02T21:38:00.001+08:00

It has been 21 days since my last off day.... or shall i say rest day since i did not have a job back than....

Well... lets me update about the popular book fair the last weekend 1st.

Sat --> Popular book feast is so so so empty!!! And ended up not much sales only manage to get $100plus nia...

But Sun the crowd was back and i manage to get $700plus sales and I was delighted but I was pissed off by Bitch I know it was rude to call someone by that name... but she really is.... She did nothing but only take the flyer to that customer and I manage to say until the customer buy the stuff and ended up she say it was her sales!!! WTF right?? But hopefully they can tell la... you see how can she close a sales of 279.50 if all her 3days sales was only like 50 or 80 or the most 135... come on la... face the world man....

NVM... then i had a good rest and started my week at siemens again and was kana chased by ppl for the issue of tickets and stuff.. Oh ya... not to mention that my contract was extended for another 4 days till end of the month... sian..... nvm..... Hopefully $ comes in fast... cause need to pay phone bill insurance bill and i want to buy my new phone!!! N97 mini!!!

Freak!!! Kill ME!!!

2010-05-28T23:40:00.002+08:00

Lol... my leg is killing me... have been standing around 8hours ++ today was being send to expo for the popular fair as promoter... well... there is good and bad.. good is alot of $$ but bad is have to work harder... have been walking and standing around just only demo to customer can sit... so in the end i think total about 10Hours of standing... it is so bad... now my leg feel like jelly and i dun feel like moving or anything... lol.... anyway...

I dun care what ppl think about me but to me sales is very important else i won't work for weekend liao... cause...where the hell you find ppl work 7 days a week with average 8hours per day... it is really very very crazy... I am turning into old lady soon... lol... due to insufficent rest... lol.... Actually feel quite bad if to take ppl sales... but if you only and attract cust there you cannot close then you actually dun deserve it... to a few ppl i know you want us to close you try to talk to the customer... but i really dun like!!! I like to tacker them myself.... I really wants to....cause if more ppl are saying it makes the parent even more confused.... so dun come and disturb me it is actually the best help liao....

Tired....

2010-05-24T19:52:00.003+08:00

Recently, the road in my life seems to have more up and down compare to the normal days... it is just so not smooth and making me very sick and tired of life... I tired to spend all my time on work... but then... it seems like a never ending process... Now i am not only physically drain at work but also mentally drain.. could not get to sleep at night and not wanting to wake up in the morning... it is just so sick... although the journey from home to office is just 30mins... but it seems so far far away when i am walking towards the office or MRT... However, the journey out of office to home just seems to be so short when the distance is actually the same....what can i say??? I dun like my current job because need to deal with the phone a lot and i dun like to talk on phone especially within an office... lol.... so most of the time i end up just by sending email....

The final Journey in a life....

2010-05-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

Today, I rejected everything on my schedule and send my beloved neighbor for her final journey. Life is just so fragile...I am rather sad is because I treat her just like my grandmother. You know the feeling of a grandmother passed away. The pain is exactly that much.... Nothing lesser... As she lived in Kampong before so do I so we have been living the Kampong style for the pass 18 years of my life walking in and out of each other house easily... Imagine a grandmother that have gone through the sweet & sour in life with you for the past 18 years.... It is indeed painful.

Now that she have passed away i really dun know who to talk to.... She have always been my listening ears as i feel my parents nag at me too often till i dun feel like pouring out the sorrows in my life to them as they will never give me their listening ears...they always start saying something else once i hit a certain point...if they loss then they will end the conversion with yaya... you very smart then you go do lor ... What is this .....

Anyway today's final journey is a very very grand one... it is good as she like it that way.... Her coffin was carried by several young men rotating and we walk a distance of 1.2KM before we took the bus... it was one of the longest i have ever attended and not only that ... cause on the journey there were a slope... so you can imagine... how grand it was... walking 1.2KM....

Auntie... hope you like it. I really missed you a lot.... I missed all the jokes, your voice, your food and many many more.... Hope you settle well in the new place together with your beloved husband and son..... Farewell my dear Auntie.....

R.I.P

2010-05-18T18:42:00.002+08:00

To my best neighbor always,

R.I.P

You will always be rmb for all the smiles and happiness that you inject into my life...

You are the only one that i can trust and pour my sorrows to .

Now that you have left me, but you will forever stand a place deep inside my heart.

Don't worry too much on your grand children.... I will rest assure that they will be in good hands...

I would try my best to help them out no matter in what ways....

R.I.P my beloved Neighbor aka Auntie aka Po Po

Hang it there!!! they need you....

2010-05-17T22:24:00.003+08:00

Today, after knock off from work i reached home to and saw an ambulance at the car park and i am already praying hard hoping that it is not my neighbor... She has been critically ill for the past few months... but what i heard from my mum is that her son send her to TTHS this morning and now TTHS asked her to come back home to rest instead of the hospital... So after a while i went over... and my tears could not be held back the moment i saw her in the unconscious when her grandchildren and son call her also no responds.... My tears just flow like a tap... i try to control myself as much as possible but i just could not... She is just so nice... Although we are just neighbor, she often talk to each other and she is just like my real grandmother....

SO God!!!! Please... I please you.... dun take her away!!!! She is a good and kind person.... she dun deserve all these ... she deserve better life.... which she have not got it so please.... please let her recover.... she is the mental support of the whole family... please... please I please you to provide her with all the power and will to fight the cancer cells... and let her recover.... please....... i beg you.......

So tired!!!!

2010-05-14T22:05:00.002+08:00

So tired!!! Yes i know it is only day 2 of my admin job but then.... i start to feel tired of my job liao... Currently the system not up yet... so i am just doing paper work.... which is filing nia... from 9 to 6 just do filing... so sian right??? Next week the system is up then i will be very sian.... cause need to help the 12 staff that i am taking care of to claim their medical expenses claim and help them to book air tickets all that... sian i very scared that it will be very hard cause i never try be4... hope that just need to use the email and not phone call cause i scared that i cannot catch what they are talking... hazi... quite surprise that Siemens got so many international staff... =)

Hmm... let me count how many job i will have

1. Temp admin (9am-6pm--> weekdays)

2. Pri 6 tuition (0930 - 1230 --> Sunday)

3. Pri 4 tuition (4hrs per week on weekdays)

4. Promoter ( 2pm - 9pm --> weekend)

5. Assessment editor (Freelance)

6. Community service (10am - 12.30pm --> Sat)

haha... it looks like very over..... hope that i can manage it welll .... Mandy Jia You Jia You!!! Look at the $$ behind the hard work and hopefully won't feel tired....

Life is just full of decisions....

2010-05-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

Well life is just full of decision.... And a decision can also make you regret for life!!!

So when ever we are making any decision, be sure that you think for a longer time, dun regret after that....

Well... today i was given a decision that will affect my life for the next year,

decision 1: Vending Machine

decision 2: PC signal control function generator

This is the 2 topic given by prof lee for my FYP.... It will affect 10 AU and it will also affect 1 year of my life in NTU which is about 30% of my time in NTU!!!

Anyway these few days, there is a lot of decisions....

1. Take up new tuition assignment which i have already taken up ( waiting for parent to reply)

2. Take up new admin job.... (Still looking)

3. Help out as promoter (Confirm for weekend)

4. Go for WSC Camp (Already Rejected)

5. A lot more to do....

Hazi... hopefully all these will not affect my life too much.... :'(

going into the 5th day of my holidays

2010-05-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

This 5 days of holiday can be fun and sad as well.... Fun as in i get out to play and stuff... But sad because the more time i spent at home the more time i feel this home dun suits me... there is just so many things to do!!! My mum is nagging all the way.... I go out never tell her also nag... I want to take in new tuition kid also nag... why is she nagging all the way???

She keep saying i have no responsibility so cannot suit to be a tutor WTF lor ... where got parent pour the whole bucket of cold water on their own child.... She keep saying last time i teach my neighbor de kid at home she say i never concentrate.... WTH... They are just paying me $100 bucks per month for tuition and it is min 4hrs per week sometime 1 week is 8 or 10 hours... i did commit my 4 hours well but just that the extra hours per week i ask her over but she is doing her work while i did mine... But then that is the extra hours ... i need to do that because she is too lazy to even finished up the home work i assign to her!!! And where the hell u find $100 bucks per month de P6 EMS tuition for 1-1 that is 3-4hr per week!!! Even those group tuition i saw it was $135 per month and it is 1.5 hr per week only!!!

Anyway i dun care liao... unless i get an admin job if not ... then i am going to take up the new tuition that is near my house. so this holiday weekdays i will go for tuition P4, sat community service, sun current tuition then after the morning community service and current tuition i pushed to morning liao.... i am going to work for my that popular promoter job... maybe weekdays also can... lol ... depends on how ba... cause at the same time i am starting my FYP also so that during school term i can hack care FYP and treated it as though it never exist... lol

The last battle

2010-05-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

Yeap!!! Very fast and i am down to the last battle of the Semester...

CPE415 --> My 1st SCE module that i finished up all my tutorials... lol

Hopefully that i can score well for it although i know it is hard but i still wanna score min a B....

Oh ya, actually i already in holiday mood liao last night i went out with my dear and friends to celebrate my dear de birthday and we have a whole night of fun prawning ... although catching the prawn is fun but cooking them is not... haha so next time prawning i won't cook the prawn i think it is so .... lor the funny thing is hor.. the prawning farm actually have a few dogs and this particular dog follow us out of the farm and we have walked about a bus stop distance and it is still following us so i told my friend i think it does and know the way home so end up we guide it home... lol so naughty ... haha....

Happy Birthday in advance dear!!! =)

Praying Hard

2010-04-22T22:20:00.002+08:00

I am praying hard that history dun repeat itself... As in like forensic science so confident in the paper in the end B. Cause this time round the accounting i feel that the section B is can do de ... then section A i also can do but 3 qn dun know how to do... :'( Hope that this time round i can get a Pointed Grade.... Cause accounting is the only module i did 60% of the tutorial + go through 20% of those qn i did not do and also did 3 sem de PYP!!!

Although everyone is telling me that it is just an elective i should just SU and go on to study my core... but i found that i have more interest studying that elective then my core leh... then ppl start saying that then i took the wrong course but i prefer doing SCE project then NBS de leh ... how?? lol is there a module that project is like SCE but exam like NBS?? lol.... Oh maybe yes... the yr4 module.... lol i got 1 the prof say as long as u can press the calculator fast enough u can finished the paper... lol but it is true a lot of calculation there....

Oh ya wish me luck for my next 3 papers.... my worries of the sem.... 303 worried because although i know some of the stuff but then everyone around me seems to be pro... 301 and 302 dun say la... 302 a few zai one around but i totally dun know what it is lor... lol

301 i believed in the power of bell curve... i just need a pass.... :x

It is getting nearer and nearer!!!

2010-04-09T13:43:00.002+08:00

Exam is getting nearer and my stress level is getting higher... actually it is more or less i ask asked for it de... never did i work hard from the start of the sem therefore when the sem is about to end and as the exam get nearer, I am feel so stress.......

5 papers and zero papers have been revised and out of 5 papers only 2 of it i know some stuff of it and the other 3 is totally zero knowledge... lol

MIA...........

2010-04-01T00:22:00.002+08:00

Haha.... I have been MIA from this places in the past 1 month.... It is not i wanted to but i am just too busy to blog... now a lot of things happen in this 1 month...

I am quite happy that i clear my 301,302,303 lab fast this sem... now i am left with 415 project... it is not hard but not easy too... the image too large if not i would have completed it liao... hazi...

Anyway... in the past 1 month, A lot of things have happen... my student getting back her result with a high score of 73 and 90 for Maths and Science respectively... it was quite impressive i would say... BTW, for the past 1 month although i suffer a lot under the pressure of school work, i had a lot of fun as well....

I went out with my poly friends is such an enjoyment =)

Then my best buddy de birthday party was fun as well =)

Not forgetting the every sat RSP FOC event ... it can be fun and angry... haha... just dun want to be too friendly cause the kids dun know their limit .... so i can say that i am the most strict person in the group of 16 ba... haha

Oh ya... my wish came true ... i went to the goat farm on the 20th... haha actually i just wanna go there to buy the goat milk... cause i like it... =) Anyway... it is a fun trip to the farm =)

Oh.... and 1 thing have been in my mind for very long... to accept him or not...

Although during my 21st birthday he finally pop the qn of going steady... i did reject him but on the other hand i am just not prepared to start a relationship... it is my 1st one after all....

He is rather nice to me... and i am most touched that he rmb whatever i say to him.... it is like so nice... no one ever treated me that well... you know as i study in engineering courses the guys dun really treat me like girl... they treat me more like their brother... haha.... but i enjoyed it =)

Actually, I know that he is good.... but then i dun know if i am ready for it a not... hazi... i think we shall go on as friends for a longer time till i am ready ba...

hazi... i shall sign off here....

Last day of recess week

2010-03-07T20:45:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of recess week and I spend my day by teaching tuition for 3 hours and cooking dinner for the family with my mummy =D

O ya. I would like to congraz my tuition kid for the CA result. It is really a good job!!! Although i am in the teaching industry for more then 6 years although this is only the 3rd kid that i collect $$. But i am glad that she score well for her Maths and Science. Which is the only subject that that i am teaching. She scored 73 for Maths although 6marks lower than what she score for p5 SA2. But then P6 is different from P5 ma... so drop a bit okie la .... But her science although i never teach her in P5 she scored 70 for it. And now she score a surprising high score of 90!!! I tot i cannot really teach that well for science but then surprising that she score sure high result.

Wanted to thank her for her hard work so i gave her one of my hello kitty collection set since i have more than 1.

Recess week

2010-03-04T20:55:00.002+08:00

The long await recess week is already here but also gone 2/3 of it liao... only left fri,sat and sun only... Sat will need to go community service, then sunday got tuition... so will be quite ... Counting down we are only left with a few more days to accounting quiz.. i am quite worry although i have read the stuff about 70% okie liao... but then still quite worry if last min forget how?? just like my STS module last time... still cannot score well... hope that this sem we can get better result ba....

FYP selection is out!!!

2010-02-25T17:20:00.002+08:00

There are 200plus FYP topics released last night... But out of the 200+ topics a lot of topics i like it but then i have no confident that i can do it... Unlike poly, i can go and pests the prof. So i also dun know what to do...

A few project assigned by prof Lee looks interesting and i think i am going to talk to him more about it and maybe take his project. Prof Lee taught me in 1st year 1st sem. he is the 1st lecturer that made me feel more relax by his teaching style like the poly style....

hmm.... but a few other projects looks interesting and hope that i can get something that i can manage... it is so stressed... haha... just hope that things turn out fine just like the poly FYP. I rmb that during poly FYP selection period I was also worried that i could not do alot of stuff... but in the end i still manage to do it... =D Hope everything turns out fine... =)

Thank Godness

2010-02-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

I would like to thank god for letting me find my necklace. This necklace is the very 1st necklace that my parent have brought for my and it is my 21st birthday present. Therefore, it is very important to me. But then i have been just laying it around without even a tot. Today when i am preparing going to school and i found that the necklace is neither in the box nor my table... but since i am late for lesson i just wear the other one that grandma buy for me. Although it is also the very 1st present given by my grandma, but as compare to my parent. Theirs is more important and nicer.

Once again Thank God!!!

tired....

2010-02-17T22:11:00.003+08:00

Recently have been very tired and moody... but now getting slightly better so decided to blog a bit... hazi.... i have been skipping lecture again like nobody's business and i dun feel like studying even at home that is the worst part of all lor...

Anyway... i must really settle down to study liao la... if not i will once again getting a D on my transcript that i don't want to....

Jia You Jia You .... Study Study.....

Go away!!!!!!

2010-02-13T14:47:00.003+08:00

How should a dad behave like??? I really have no idea!!! Cause mine did not behave like a dad should at all... he have stopped working for about 2 weeks already and all he did was to sit there and play electronics game just like a kid...in his next life and next next life i hope that god will let him be a woman and have a husband like how he is behaving and let him have a taste of this kind of life...

In short in fact, i think all man are like that even my 2nd bro, they just act as if nothing happens... just hide in the room or act blind... he just dun see a need in helping whereas me and my poor mummy have been busy since yesterday... we would have have been so busy if everyone just chip in a bit to help eg. sweeping the floor, mopping the floor and such...

Other then the busy schedule we still have to buy food for them just worried that they are hungry... if i were my mum they will not get any food... hungry go buy yourself la.. not happy arh... ur problem... and i am really grateful to my mum that had such a difficult life all these years.... If i were my mum i think i would already file a divorce already... poor mum i will try my best to loved you even more from today onwards. and i am really sorry if i have shouting at you or what so ever for the past few years... i know it have been hard on you...

LOVE U MUM (*hug*)

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2010-02-12T00:35:00.002+08:00

Haha... I know that there are still 2 days to CNY but i am in CNY mood for very very long liao...

Today i very happy, I went to sakae sushi to eat buffet again... haha.... it is like ours once per sem gathering... haha we had this every single sem and i loved it =D

I like to eat those raw salmon and tuna fish... it is so nice and yummy... haha...

Feeling tired...

2010-02-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

CNY is around the year all the spring cleaning and stuff is making me tired... but then i am also happy that it is coming cause i can get to play with my baby cousin again... hehe...although i keep calling them baby but in actual fact, they are no longer babies liao ... one of them is going to be P1 next yr and the other will be K1 next yr... time really flies.... At 1st i was counting that i grad from NIE just nice he P1. but then now it is no longer the case... haha

The qn that i keep asking myself back in yr1 is back again... why study??? i think the yr3 moudle really sucks leh... esp the 301 ... the tutorial is like Maths 1 plus maths 2 lor... i dun understand why is it call digital communication... it should be Maths 3... at least if i know there is so many maths in the course i would have just took EEE and i will be doing my FYP now waiting to grad liao... but... now need extra 1 sem cause i switch to this course... anyway... i know la we should not regret on whatever decision we have made... we should try to make the decision wise at the point of time rather then regret it later like me... I have made up my mind... after grad i will find a job... then if i not happy with my job then i will go take the NIE postgrad degree. the most bond 3 yrs... but then after that i can open my own tuition centre... =D nowadays tuition is the most popular industry liao.... =D

Yes and No....

2010-02-05T01:39:00.003+08:00

Hazi... Why must we have so many Yes and No in life???
let me start with happy stuff...
I finally get the chance of going back to my sec school although i did that a few times when i grad from there but it have been a long long time since i see all the teachers there.... Only a few will rmb me i guess.. but there is also very few left :'( but nvm... tml i will be going back for the alumni party with my gang of friends that used to be with me through out my life in sec. Really hope to see more ppl there tml... looking forward for the party... and hope all the teachers can stay and chit chat with us... esp Ms Lee(my fav maths teacher) and Ms Sae (my fav Science and form teacher)

okie... after every happy thing, there will be sad stuff....
The sad stuff is that i am no longer in the mood of studying... looking at all my results they sucks like hell... looking at all the tutorial and they seems so new to me... It is already week4... which is 1/4 of the sem is gone already and yet i am still so nua... and suddenly this week just keep asking myself why study??? i am not in the mood... or rather i looked forward to celebrate CNY more then anyone else... lol

I am feeling tired...

2010-02-02T23:47:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so tired... I am not in the mood of doing anything..... no matter it is study or work... i really have no mood....

the 200th Post on my blog

2010-01-25T13:50:00.002+08:00

This is the 200th post in my blog... haha it is also one of the longest blog i had =)
Well this is week 3 in school and all the stress will be start coming up from now on... and i am going to be in deepshit for my 301 and 303 i think... and 415 i am quite worried for my 415 project.

Oh ya... anyone interested in donating stuff for REDBox project??? It is a project whereby we are donate items for the kids and this charity organization will be giving out this little present for those kids as CNY present... anyone interested please contact me. Last day of collection is Friday =)

the feeling is so....

2010-01-21T16:21:00.002+08:00

I having the ache over my body since sun... sian... sun and monday ache is due to the 1hour running in the shopping mall but then tue i went to play 1 hr of outdoor basketball, 1 hr of indoor basketball and 2 hours of indoor badminton and now i am having ache... the worst part is my lower arm muscle is giving the ache... it is to so.................

Anyway I enjoyed the 4 hrs games a lot ... really enjoyed my 6hours break in school =D

Haha... anyway, this week is the last week of add/drop and i havben even get my slot for ahss... what i am suppose to do??? sian....

I feel so old....

2010-01-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

I suddenly feel so old... Haha... but then the main reason that i feel this way is because on the 16Jan, I have the 1st Tween Club @ Sengkang event which is my CCA (WSC) and we have this urban treasure hunt @ compass point... lol... so we are suppose to go in groups and find a total of 20 shops that the pics are taken from... so my group have 1 male and 1 female and me age all around 21 and also 3 kids all age 12. so you know la... kids are very ... so they run all the way... for 1 hour from the family service centre to the mall and run around in the mall and then back to the centre... after so many year of lack of exercise this is consider quite a good work out but then i think never cool down enough and i end up muscle aching from head to toe.... for my whole sunday and monday... i was pratically OMG i dun want to move... haha!!! but i still have to cause i have tuition on the sunday... haha another $45bucks earn!!! Yeah!!!

I am looking forward for another 2 lesson so i can collect my pay... cause i am super broke now... and i am going to get 180 once i get the pay.. haha

Week 1 in School

2010-01-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

hmm.... Week 1 in school is not really that great as compare to the past few semester... cause i am having problem with the module that i need to take.... At first was thinking of taking 301,302,303,415 + 1 elective... but after the 1st lesson of the 415 the lecture told us a lot of stuff and making us all so dam worried about it... so end up abit feel like dropping... But after today de lesson i feel that it is not that bad after all but they all say that lets keep it 1st wait till tutorial 2 then see how... cause add/drop is till next sunday anyway and the appeal for AHSS de elective will only come out on friday.... seriously if i get both of my appeal i will either drop one and continue with 415 or take both and drop 415.... haha.... cause 415 i only worried about the project part la.... writing a program to compressed image or video all that... haha it sounded hard la... but i think it is not java... lol so should be better i can still do a bit but i am sure not strong de.... lol

anyway, lets see if i get AHSS 1st then say ba... cause both appeal that i submit right? is all over-rated de... one is 600% + overrated and the other is 8000%+ over rated... so if really can get hor will be dam heng liao lor... lol...
this yr a bit screw up also cause the notes that we buy are all wrong the auntie did not get the lastest notes and she started printing... oh no right??? no choice $5 plus wasted.... haiz.... tml need to go print myself.... =)

Hazi... and the worst part of everything is that rmb i got the cough be4 i go malaysia??? After the malaysia trip i went to see the doctor since i am not fully recovered yet... so i was given antibiotics that i have taken countless times... and assume that it will get better.... who knows.. yes indeed the cough get better but this time round i got allegy to the antibiotics... so i am covered with rashes for the past few days... at 1st i tot that it was the rashes that all my friends have developed after the trip... but on tue, their rashes all went down and yet mine is getting worst... so i suspect that it was the medication so i stopped it that night and went to see doc on wed and skip one of my lecture... and indeed it was allegy to antibiotics... i could have recovered much early cause after the rashes appeared, i had another 2 dose of the medication... luckily it did not get worst... lol only that it takes longer time for the rashes to recover and i am better now... i can see that the rashes is not so red liao... hope tml will be better cause doc say if by sat never recover must see her again.. i dun mind seeing her again cause she won't charged too x but then hor... the queue of her clinic is dam long de lor... i went at 7.30am despite her clinic opening at 8am and i got the queue number 3!!! and it is a weekdays... and i rmb the weekend that i went to see her hor... i went there at 8.05am and i got queue number 26!!! it is so hot la... till i very scared going there... lol hope i recover asap!!!

School Starts Tml

2010-01-10T20:49:00.002+08:00

Time really flies... the 1 month long holidays is comming to an end in just another 3hrs... However, I am glad that i have the chance of enjoying myself to the max before a new semester starts. Although not fully recharged physically, but i am 100% recharged mentally... lol....
Cause for the previous few holidays, i have been always working till the holidays end so i ended up niether physically nor mentally recharge... so this time round is much much better... =)

Next sem i am taking 301, 302, 303, 415 as well as accounting... wee..... haha it is good that only 4 core 1 elective... but hope the core is not too siong to study.... lol

Counting down about 16hrs

2010-01-03T16:13:00.002+08:00

Counting down to my trip to KL.... only 16hours left... haha checked in bag already packed but then hand carry one yet to be done... later need to double checked again for check in bag... lol...

Looking forward to the trip there =D. And Daddy is driving me to the airport... yeah!!! haha

I am BROKE....

2009-12-31T00:10:00.002+08:00

I am really really broke now...... After all the KL trip stuff are done i am super broke now... so i guess i need to start tuition asap when i return from KL.... but will not be earning that much liao... last few sem was earning like 340 per month but now i currently only have 1 which is 220 nia... so sad arh...

But then i am looking forward to my trip though... but i am trying to get some funding for my life after KL trip cause i think my current saving is already down to 2 digit liao... so sad right... haha cause my 1.2K was given to my mummy for save keeping cause i know i cannot save... haha

Christmas is in the air...

2009-12-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

Christmas is in the air... counting down in less than an hour time christmas will be here!!!
MeRry ChRiStMaS Everyone!!!
haha today have a christmas party with the AMK Family Service Centre Childcare Basic de children... By basic i mean child between the age of 7 to 12. It is really noisy when you put 16 kids in one bus... lol... they chat and chat like never ending... lol... it is quite cool... and I get to chat with this kid that is in Pri 2 promting to Pri 3 next year he knows a lot of stuff he is like the big brother in the gang... When we ask him u want Ice-Cream??? You know la... kids where got say NO to ice-cream de?? but he did when ask for reasons he said he just recovered from cough... i was like ... such a nice kid... he even know things like hot air float cold air sink... and alot of other things as well ... it was really a wow wow for me.. when we are back in the childcare after the christmas party he ask us to call his dad and when we tell him ur dad say he is reaching.. and he said why so long and we said maybe traffic jam and guess what he say?? Does he come from office if yes there will not be jam cause he will be travelling from KPE and KPE no jam one... i was like his kid knows a lot... if taken with great care will be one of the top student in Singapore.. haha... and i learn a new version of Nobody from them... 2 version infact both got to do with Swine flu... haha... so nice... hehe...

Version No 1.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wCi8z1eXT58
Version No 2.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fw09Zr3t2v8
Enjoy!!!!!

Back to PeiCai

2009-12-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

Today got a chance to go back to my sec school... it is so nice... but the environment is too new to me cause they undergo prime and the whole school is hack down for renovation... Alumni going back to your school but with a new environment that is totally new to you will feel abit wired... lol...

I get to see Ms Lee my maths teacher during my sec 3 and 4 period... haha really great to see her around... haha hope that i still got the chances to go back but i also hope my student can sucessfully transfer to ZhongHua Sec... dots right?? hazi nvm la.....

I think any school you go to will be the same really depends on how the mindset was... as long as you are hardworking enough you can still make it... to poly and then to uni although not recommanded... haha... cause i feel super emo and sad ever since i go to uni...

lol... i wil find days that i am free to go back to school... =)

So unlucky

2009-12-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

My student is so freaking unlucky... She is just 3 marks below the cut off point to enter to ZhongHua Sec but we decided to give it a try and choose it as our 1st choice but then it was rejected and given as our Second choice which is Peicai Sec...

Well Peicai Sec is not bad either but i am worried if it is a rainy weather then the route to school is not very good as it is not very ideal... as compare to ZhongHua Sec.

ZhongHua Sec was a better choice as it is not only closer to our house but also they offer Express course subject like Mathematics and Chinese to Normal Academic student... I think this is very good cause a student might not score well in Science but can be very good in Maths and Chinese so it is not so good if they are stream into purely Normal Academic subject....

I help her to appeal to ZhongHua Sec liao but not too sure if we can get it but i can tell you that the chances are super low so if we get it i can only say that it is super lucky lor... But i doubt so as her luck was not that good for the transistion of Primary to Secondary progress... =.=

The feeling of quality time is so ....

2009-12-20T20:54:00.002+08:00

I loved it when i get to spent quality time with nothing to worry be it with my friends or family it is just simply the best thing that one can ever have in life!!!

This holidays i am going to make it a meaningful one as i hope that i can get some stuff done like cleaning up the house =D and of course some others like get more involved in my CCA which is the Welfare Service Club.

hmm... lets look back what i have done for the past one week!!!

Tue: 1st day of holidays: Attended training for WSC TCS program for year 2010
Wed: Accompany daddy to his NUH appointment
Thurs: Meet up with uni friends for a buffet lunch @ yuki yaki... and found out that desmond is a good cook... haha... then meet up with my friend from SIM (get to know her in my previous job @popular) to go to the book fair.... nice and big!!!
Fri: Staying home doing some simple housework... hmm....
Sat: Went out with my poly friends to electronic fair and then to movie... the movie totally sucks!!! haha althought they spend a lot time making it but seriously it is bad...
Sun: Today was busy cleaning up the house... Mum and I clean up my whole room from the wall to floor... haha it is now so clean except all the drawers and cupboards...:P

hmm... Really looking forward to tml activity with the kids ... it is christmas event by NTU for the Kids... will update soon..........

Holiday!!!

2009-12-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

Holiday is good!!! 2 days of holiday already made feel relax.... haha....
Day 1: I went to training session for the new WSC TCS programme
Day 2: Accompany my dad to NUH for his appointment...

I am happy cause Doctor say that dun need to go back for appointment, just need to go poly clinic to get medication can liao =) good right???

Happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tml will be a fun day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11.30am meeting Uni friend for lunch till 5pm
then 7pm meeting my work friends for popular book feast.... hmm.... actually i feel like going to all the fair!!!! Popular , Wastons and also electronics... haha

I am so tired!!!

2009-12-11T17:30:00.002+08:00

I am so tired!!!
I have sleep liao but yet i am still very de tired... I dun know why but then i am just super tired la.... This is not very good sign... cause i know my body the best.... Once i start to feel super tired and mood swing then i am going to fall sick soon.... I need to hang it there... at least till everything is over.... i feel like sleeping....

I am Pissed up

2009-12-08T19:25:00.003+08:00

I am freaking pissed off by the DDP.... SO many things to do yet i seems to be not in the right track!!!

Life is so freaking screwed up....

2009-12-07T19:45:00.002+08:00

Life is so freaking screwed up!!! I am so tired with DDP and School... =.=

hmm... DDP turns out bad cause i really feel that i did not do much and i dun know how the grade is going to be like.. i want at least a B for it =.= I hope that this sem my gpa can up till 3 at least a 3rd class should put me in a good mood to study next sem...

That day have dinner with my god-father, Carol and Ada. It was a nice one... =) Guess what my god-father say: " I was about to tell Carol, How come this Mandy never ask us out for dinner for so long ?" Then the next day i sms him liao... lolx... Cause we always meet up each other min 3 days
Day 1: CNY, Day 2: Sem 1 break, Day 3: Sem 2 break.

Haha...Although it is just a meet up and catch up how is life going and blah blah blah... I told him liao ask the project manager can write to the school and let me join them for IA... Haha really wished to go back there so that it is near my house and i know the ppl there so dun need to adopt to a new environment again.... Even grad i dun mind joining them for a few years lor... then after then go towards my dream job at NYP... provided they take me in la... XD

i just need to endure another 3 sem of studies and FYP. IAP i hope it is okie... so add up another 2 years ... and i will get out of hell... but who knows... The things that awaits you is it Hell or Heaven?? They are just one line away right??? :x

haha okie enough of emo liao... I going home soon to find the mood to do log book.... =.=

Well... Well.. Well

2009-12-06T03:49:00.002+08:00

DDP is not hard to pass but hard to score....
Anyway.... I feel that in DDP i am not doing anything much... You see i only did the hardware part and the software part i am only giving advices that how the algo should be like and blah blah blah.... It is as good as not coding anything lor... =.=
SO i am pretty worried about the assessment cause i cannot understand how the thing is going to be like...
I trying my best to come up with diagram so that we can do a bit on the log book ... but then alot of things i really dunno what to write and what to do leh...
Hazi.. and feeling like never do anything much then i also quite scared... what if the prof ask something and i cannot ans... T_T

let's keep the fingers crossed and i can get it up running over the week and really for assessment by tue then we have wed to do log and get to know what part we are doing each...

DDPing

2009-12-03T16:28:00.002+08:00

Hazi... Althoguh the exam is over but the semester is not over yet!!! I still have this project: Design & Development Project to be done in the comming weeks.... This holiday although most ppl will be enjoying but poor me need to go back to school to do the stupid project... Exam are f*cking screwed up and totally not in the mood to do the DDP seriously... but then i have got no choice but to carry on...

We advance the DDP date to today and when i went a a tea break just now guess who i saw??? Adam!!! Freak la... Really dun feel like saying hi to him cause his paper is the most Freak de... I totally cannot do much about it!!! 1st time in my live my maths is that chui till i cannot even do a single qn... although some parts are correct but i really cannot do it... I will be dam freaking happy if i can get a D lor and if i get C and above i think it is all the job of the GOD... Really hoping for an A, 3B's and 3C's a lot but i think it is all gone liao... T_T

DDP is okie but i dun like to do it .... cause i am really not good neither am i in the mood to do so.... I want my holiday.... but guess what i dun think i have anymore holiday till i grad... okie la... maybe got but sure less then 1 month... see arh... this holidays at 1st 1month+ but due to DDP left 2weeks+ the next one at 1st 3months but due to IAP it become lesser then 1month, the next one after that is FYP time... do u think u got the mood to relax...

very time ppl ask me what is the most regret thing in life.... i would say entering NTU and ppl will say .... I cannot even get in an u regret u got in? haha believed me u will not want to get in.. I wonder did anyone survey the drop out rate of uni... I think it is dam high la... =.= I am hanging there is because i hope to complete uni... and end up in a dream job soon.... Everytime ppl say Peicai not good then my student de father will say who say not good?? See i also study all the way to uni... haha if i drop out of uni what will it be??? haha... last time we always joke that we will grad with PHD during poly... means : Poly half way drop out... I think it is hard to get it but now i think grad with UHD is easy... a new degree... haha uni halfway drop out....

well prehaps i am too tired to do any thing now that why i am talking a lot of rubbish!!! lol got to go DDP again... haiz

Yeppie!!!

2009-11-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

Another Wish that came true!!! haha daddy brought me a computer chair just now in the afternoon!!! It is the kind of net chair that is full back support de... It is so nice... but i cannot get the plastic out yet cause have not get the cover for the chair yet!!!

Today when to buy a dict EL - Chinese de... and then i got a ring binding like of puncher... =) next time can do the ring binding myself... lol

The good thing is that i saw that my tuition kid seems to work harder after the PSLE result is out ... I asked her to do the Sec 1 expressed maths and she really sit there and work even i ask her to rest... she just drink a cup of water and she is back to work liao... so hard working right??? If she is that hardworking before her PSLE... she would have made it to a better.... hazi..... It is all over liao... so nevermind ba

I am dissappointed

2009-11-26T23:17:00.003+08:00

I am so disappointed... With a lot of things.... With my own exam progress and my student exam result... The PSLE result that was released today.... I am so dissappointed as i think she did not put in enough effort or maybe is because this year PSLE student are doing too well that pull down her score!!! But happy for her is that although the PSLE Maths'09 is difficult but then she managed to score an A but quite dissappointed with her science ... she only got a C i was expecting at least a B or so but maybe her EL not that good that she cannot understand the qn or that is because it is her last paper and she not in the mood to the paper....

My A hope fly away liao!!!!

2009-11-24T22:21:00.002+08:00

Sad Sad.... my CBC811 de A fly away liao!!! My MCQ got 50% i dunno how to do... then i all try my luck!!! Hopefully my luck is good!!! lol i also dun know ...

Nvm... 3 down and i am going to go for another 3 the next 2 days... and finally 1st dec...
but after thurs i can rest half a day then fri start working again....

Exam!!!

2009-11-21T02:02:00.002+08:00

The most import few weeks in the academic year 09/10 Semester 1 is here. Already 2 out of the 6 papers are over. I am stressed out now cause I spend too much time for project work and i am now too short of time to study for my papers!!!

2 of the papers are already screwed up by me due to the insufficent revision....
I really regret it but then i am too tired to do anything!!! I know that i am responsible for my own study! But then i just cannot get down to study!!! WTH right ??? I can't even control my body and mind....

Tue is my elective and I hope that i can score better in that hopefully an A. Cause ever since I enter NTU, I have not been getting any A. This A will give me some moral boost!!! I need to get some boost before i can work as hard as i do when it comes to exam days. whereby i can start preparing even 1 month be4 exam!!! But i just can't do it now!!!

I am aiming for 3B's, 3C's and 1 A. this will hopefully pull up my GPA a bit!!! I still hope that i can earn a 3rd class for myself!!!!

CSI, I like.....

2009-11-11T20:50:00.004+08:00

Haha... It is the 1st time in NTU that i like a subject... haha it is my elective so nice.... today i went to the guest lecturer's lecture and it is so interesting... I finally get some hands on to do today... The guy from Singapore Police Force Crime Scene Investigation Unit give us a chance to do finger printing... haha you might find it boring both it is quite satisfying when you can do a nice finger printing... it is not as easy as doing finger printing on paper with those ink.... lol

As today we forcus on white surface, We only get to try using black powder to do finger printing.. and it rather cool.... unlike all the CSI we see on TV... the equipment used to do the powdering was some magnetic pen kind of thing... and guess what is the powder??? Rmb those iron filling that we used in physics lab when we are back in Sec??? haha that is the so call black powder... it is so cool right??? haha....

So cool!!! how i wished can have it as I , II and even III just like the language!!! haha ... it is so cool!!!!

Well... Well... Well...

2009-11-10T23:32:00.002+08:00

hmm... It is another day wasted... I planned to study for my exam de but i just cannot concentrate i see lecture notes then i start to have the zzzz de feeling liao... haiz...

One good news, My student the one that i just started teaching some where in sept or Aug cannot rmb... have a great improvment in the results and i am happy for her cause she won herself $150 bucks. Cause her grandma bet $50 for every A she score and her dad being more encouraging bet $100. and Now scoring 79 which is an A won her $150 bucks in total and i am not too sure about her other subject... lol... so good right how you hope that you have grandparents and parents like that back in ur pri right?? cause last time A is so simple... lol... but nowadays, I can tell you their Maths is really a big .... Lets just take the PSLE qn this year for example.... It is like impossible for them to sloved the qn la... as in the method they have learn is insufficent... i still rmb i learn that method in sec 2.... lol it is so zzz for those that set the paper la... ya challenging but then they dun even know how to sloved it cause the method is not tot be4. So MOE should look into it ... it is ridiculus to ask student solved qn with method that have not been taught somemore they are only pri school kids...

Cause i know in uni although we meet with this kind of situation very often but then it is of no use to complain... cause uni promotes self-learning but yet i dun know why the school fee so x since it is more of self learn... lol ... like my 208 lecturer... lecture teach you: 1 pizza for $1. tutorial ask you: 1 pizza for $1, so how much does 10 pizza cost? and then exam ask you: 3 pizza and 4 apples cost $25, 1 apple cost $5. How much does each pizza cost? lol can see the link ?? haha he always like to use pizza till i so bored and never go his lesson ... lol ... nvm....

I think i better get back to study my 208 liao... hope to complete it by today but i think not possible cause i only left with 15mins for today... lol

OMG!!!

2009-11-09T00:25:00.002+08:00

Counting down to exam it is only 1 week and only my elective and 208 is half way done!!! the others liao 206,183, 184and 106 is totally not done yet !!! How how how???

I really want to sit down and study but the moment i open my book i want to sleep... and now i trying new way of study that i will not sleep which is multi tasking.... haha I dun know how come... This is how i am studying now: "Lecture Video + facebook game " haha so i will not sleep cause i playing game ma... and the info did get through as i am listening... i am a kind of listen person.. i can rmb some parts if i listen so if i pay attention i can do well this is reflected in my maths results from young. cause i only pay attention in my maths classes during pri, sec and poly life... haha.... but ever since i enter uni study is no longer interesting to me... i start to play around with this and that... what to do?? I am like that .... and i feel that i sleep a lot nowadays... and rather worry cause every time i feel that i sleep a lot it is often = I am getting sick soon.... This is a very bad time to get sick so i am trying not to get sick as much as possible..

okie... i shall go back to my video lecture liao...

I need a Remedy

2009-11-06T00:02:00.002+08:00

Can someone provide me with a remedy that could help me to settle down and study??? lol... I think no one can provide me with this remedy right?? haha...

But really cannot settle down to put 100% of my energy on studying... I am so pissed with it... It is so =.= that i cannot settle down to study.... so tired....

Anyway, we want it to be able to complete my study of lecture notes by this weekend... it is so like mission impossible.... hazi.... what to do??? I think better i go and study ba.....

Moody day

2009-11-04T12:10:00.002+08:00

Yup.... Yet another moody day.... Oh ya... the trip after ddp is postphone to jan.... =) so good... cause the hotel and flights everything is cheaper.... :P

Exam is due in last then 10 days and yet i totally not in the mood to settle down to study... other then travelling time but u cannot expect me to travel here and there and study in the train right... lol.... anyway... i must settle down and study no matter what... and going to pray again i guess... shall do it the same way like my elective de quiz.... haha... at least can score... i want to score at least an A and the rest B.... so that my gpa can increased and hopefully can get to 3.1 or 3.2.... I know it is a bit too much but i believed that if i worked hard enough it is not a mission impossible as others can do it... so can i.... always believed in myself right??? haha that is what i always told my student but it is not that easily done as the years goes by... lol ....

Closure!!!

2009-11-01T02:49:00.002+08:00

Yup! I am going on to Closure.... So sorry for friends that are not in NTU, We got to get lost of touch in maybe 1 months?? haha 1 Nov till 1Dec. Cause i need to have closure... for my Exam... lol... Yup 1 month of Exam preparation and Exam. It is not any easy stuff.... cause your know la... from young i had never study so hard in life... lol... other then the O's... But looking back... PSLE, O's and poly is just like a having fun.... So sometimes, i see ppl happily laughing or what when they revise in group, i always want to say to them: "Don't laugh too early, Uni life is gonna be ..... "I can only say it is almost like the 18th level of HELL... Yeah i know it is bad to discribie it this way but i really feel it this way... lol....

Never in my life have i worked so hard and yet there is not much sence of achievement... it is like..... zzzz.... okie... nvm... I am gonna study hard and also play hard after Exam... After Exam still got DDP.... But after DDP my friends wants to go to KL and genting... I really feel like going... but i think the day they going to set off is my 'sis' Secondary one posting and reporting to school day. Yeah her bro can accompany her, but will he wants to??? And her grandma is dignose with Cancer just a few days ago and it is said that the cancerous cells is too big to be removed... she can only undergo treatment... it is really saddening to see a kid at such a tender age going through so much... i know friends is important for kids like her, but i really wants her to get away with her primary school friends cause i got a feeling is that they are not a good company for her.... Her grandma is in unstable condition now... as in no one will know what will happen after the treatment right??? But i really pray hard that GOD will acutally give her the will power and get cured of Cancer... it is definately sad.... How many of ur out there stopped having a mum around at a tender age of about 4. And she grew up with her father, although she gets to see her mum once in a while but very seldom. And the dad is working so hard to provide them with the best.... so her grandma is the one that take care of them all this while... yet now she is in an unstable condition... i can still remember last year when my dad kana stroke i was like a total break down not to say that she have been through so much more then me...

I really pray that GOD will lift any spell that is cast on this poor family...
1st: Grandma kana stroke
2nd: Uncle kana Cancer (Died after 3-4 months)
3rd: Grandma got admitted again due to some bleeding at private part.
4th: Auntie kana Cancer (lucky, cured now)
5th: Grandma kana Cancer....

Why does all this happen to such nice ppl.... I really pity this little girl for all the things that she have to go through.... How many of you out there does: washing whole family clothes, Cooking for the whole family, doing all the housework like sweeping , mopping and ironing.... Dun say about your i myself only does all this when my mood is really good... but she is forced into doing all this at a age of about 11............ Really praying hard and hope that her grandma cancer cells will be killed or get smaller after the treatment so that she can cut it out of the body....

GET WELL SOON. Praying hard........................................................................................

So since she is treating me like sis... as in she will still tell me things that she feels ... so i want to try to accompany her till a stage of life where she can be more independance like poly... ??? I dun know.... But i just hope that she will not turn into one of those arh lian and she will be someone useful in the society........

Okie i think i will stop here liao... shall blog again later after my revision....

Rain Rain Go Away....

2009-10-30T18:54:00.002+08:00

Haha that is my mood currently... i am suppose to be happy cause I finally finished all my project work!!! Yeah... it is really a OMG... FINALLY!!!! Cause this sem is unlike any others whereby ppl there is others there to help u with your project cause it is in group.... This particular project need you to code every thing in assembly and it is .... OMG!!! a hundreds lines of code in assembly... imagine i used acall and i can get things like Out of Bound error!!!! How long my code is ... haha so i end up cut and try to shorten the length of my code and finally it works... and the temperature sensor... thanks to Dean i manage to finished it today although with a bit of hipcups... haha.... btw.... I am rather happy as i am able to finished it.... haha.... cause today is the last day of 5% and not only that... i can start revision liao... now this is my plan:
Sat: Community service + Go out!!!
Sun: CPE106 Tutorials (all)
Mon: CPE208 Tutorials (all)
Tue: CPE 206 Past year paper (Cause i think tutorial CMI... As in i understand the concept but i cannot ans the qn... lol....
Wed: My elective..... Forensic Science...
Thurs: CPE184
Friday: CPE183

hmm... then the following week chiong past year paper then should be okie liao... =)

Update!!!!

2009-10-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

It is a while since the last update.... But no choice i am busy with my school project and other stuff... And to make things worst, i fell ill... Some kind of cough virus.... Arh!!! I hate it cause cough was always the most difficlt to recover illness for me... Still rmb sec 4 that time i got 3/4 year of MC for PE just because of my cough....

Anyway, glad that i have recover liao so not too bad....
Okie lets talk about school...
Cpe106: totally lost .....
Cpe206: lab done but lecture lost
Cpe208: lab 60% done but lecture lost
Cpe184 & 183: lost

Die exam is 3weeks away and i am totally lost..lol

OMG!!! I spend so much this week

2009-10-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

I spend so much this week!!! I spend $40 to buy one new wireless mouse cause my old one got lost... never to be found... so got sick and buy a new one... it was selling like 70+ in the popular but my friend sold me at 40 bucks.... And i think worth it for the design ba...
Then i think i going to spend some $ to see doctor tml for my stupid cough, flu and sore thoart... the most irrating is sore thoart... but when in public... cough is the worth... see a lot of ppl siam u when you cough... haha.... Singaporean... lol....

Anyway, dun care tml got to see doctor cause sat is gong gong de death ani.... I want to go ... and also want to play with my toddler cousin... but dun want to pass the virus to him... so i better get my medication asap... haha... the last time that i got thoart infection that cause high fever... this time i think i got the same thing... but the good thing is that i still have the fever panadol with me... so i took a couple of that and the fever gone down... =) now i need other medication for my cough, flu and sore thoart... it is so..... I hate being sick and need to rush for project... Sorry guys, DDP drawing not done yet cause i was sick since Sunday... hoping for the better as days goes by but too bad it turn out for the worst =.= I will get it done asap...

Part 1 of 09Oct09

2009-10-09T14:13:00.002+08:00

CPE184 is such a .... module....We have major turn over of the business plan just one night be4 the deadline.... It is so ..... I work till 3am in the morning while the rest work till 7am in the morning so most of us are kind of like zombi.... in school today.... either stone one corner or sleeping in class....

Next week is elarning week but it is not a week to rest it is a week for me to catch up the stuff that i lag behind!!!!!

OMG!!!

2009-10-05T00:18:00.003+08:00

Today is the last day of recess week.... But so many things are left undone!!! For example: "206 log book" , "208 report", "184 report" and "811 mid term test to prepare"... There is also other stuff like.... my student de PSLE....

Actually not that bad la... cause most of the things like 206, 184 and 811 are half done... only 208 is totally not done... but then that i still have 1 weekend to do it... so not that bad... after my mid-term test and my student de psle i can start to chiong... for all the module including 183... cause it is the only moduel that i dun have any other idea what it is all about ... it is really =.=

haha... okie got to get back to working liao ... jia you jia you !!!!!

DDP Day 4

2009-10-01T15:30:00.002+08:00

Today is a dam freaking tired day for me... 1stly is doing programming with i have done it but cannot check if i am correct a not cause i practically dun know how to check if i am correct or wrong...

Then i was like so freaking tired as it have been 4 days of 8-5 life in school... infact it is even longer... It was like 8-8pm it has been super tiring... as i live so far away if 8-8 it will means 6am-2am kind of life for me... yes... cause other then DDP i also have other project to do which means i need to work at home after reaching home... so pratically speaking i am only having 4 hours of sleep per day... i am super dam chui liao... dun know what to do.... so many things is still not done and yet i am so tired and seems not able to get hings done... and worst is my habit of watching at least one hour of tv or show cannot get corrected.... erh.... trying to get it away so as i have 1 more precious hour to do my work but i just can't seems get it corrected!!!

It is so freaking bad habit for so many years that i will feel uneasy if i dun watch.... infact any program is okie as long as i have one hour to watch... but one thing it must be drama or comdey show... lol It required really great determination i guess... well i will try my best to get it corrected.... hazi....

DDP Day 2

2009-09-29T09:01:00.002+08:00

Today marks the start of DDP day 2. It is so tiring and stressed up as i feel that my programing sucks!!! compare to my peers... I think i should really put in some hard work in my programming esp 206, DDP and 208... 208 have not reached the programing state but it is soon to come!!! It was so tiring...

Yesterday the DDP started and i was rushing for tuition right after DDP... I only managed to reach typ at only 6.45pm... and i rushed to buy dinner and went to take the bus immediately.. Then i reached the block at only 6.52pm and i rushed down my dinner and i went up to that girl girl de house at 7pm. And then the mum tot that i have not have my dinner and prepared bread for me... lol then ended up i have 2 dinner!!!!

Haha.... It was so dam sian today... now trying my best to pull my sis up... as her psle is just 2 weeks away and it was so.... hazi... nvm... may god bless her with power till she finished her PSLE!!!!

Tired!!!

2009-09-27T01:52:00.003+08:00

I know i should not be saying this word to my team mates in DDP!!!
Guys! really sorry cause yesterday (Sat) i was all tied up!!! So could not join your for the project!!! The upcomming week is recess week i am looking forward to a week of good rest!!! But then..... DDP is from 08.30am till 05.30pm everyday from mon to fri... worst then school hours ... DIE!!!! And during school hours already so busy with school work till no time to do everything liao... this recess still must do 184 report... 206 log book ... 208 report lab 2... and my forencis science school reopen got quiz... OMG!!! really dun know if i can finished anot sia.... zzz really very tired!!! If i know none of my student for WSC is going i would not have gone to WSC today liao!!! as in because i am super tired... last night my DDP team de Ben, JH and Me stay to do motor till 12mn in school .... Have you ever stay in school till the tutorial room de lights turn off totally??? haha kana scared when it did... lol....

BTW was rather happy as i was reading through my guest book or should i say the wishes book.... It has been very meaningful esp my ex-student wrote de :"Even though you're naggy, you have good intentions and helped me a lot." and he say that he thank me for being playing a part in his primary school life... It is really touching when i read that... My tears almost drop down.... even now when review in my blog as typing my tears are filling my eyes... The reasons is thinking back... 14 years ago he is in my house looking so cute climbing out of his baby bed and walking and dancing around with the music... and once the music is off he will say : "dun have liao" in hokkien and doing the hand signal... and then all the hard work that I have put in... helping him in wrapping their books... buying their books.... just like a mum preparing for the kids for school reopens. When his results not that good i offer him a tuition at a cheaper rate... then i also nagged at him for not doing well and all sort of things... accompany him to report to new sec school and make sure he is never alone in his impt part of life like collecting PSLE result and reporting to new school and now in sec 3 he knows how much hard work i have put into him... and he knows how to appreciate it... which makes me feel it is all worth it!!!!

It's the day!!!!

2009-09-24T14:52:00.002+08:00

Haha... although my party is over... but then I only formally turns 21 today at.... Finally i can enjoy all the things that my friends are enjoying and not being the spoiler due to underage... cause certain movie due to the gross, sex or even volient scene they classify it to be min age 21 be4 i can watch!!! So finally i get the Key to freedom and more choices...

I think i kind of still having a hang over from my party as i was still feeling super tired despite the early sleep.... I kind of close my eyes and i can sleep no matter where i am... lol... But prehaps i am slightly over worked due to the extra tuition assignment that i just took up... But the pay was quite good at $15 per hour... how can anyone says no to this kind of $ cause i am quite sure that my exp in teaching can put me in good state... and after 5 sessions the mum seems feels quite okie with mine teaching.. yesterday i went to her house straight after school... she even fry an egg and make sandwich for me... so good right??? haha... I am so fourtunate to get this kind of parents...

even feel tired now while typing and listening in the lecture of 208...sian... i dun know what happen liao la... next week is the week to rest for all student but not for me... I need to go back to school everyday.... for the stupid DDP!!!!I really dun feel like doing so much.... and do we need one week to do DDP??? It is from 9 to 5 some more if i am not wrong.. need to check again later... really tired to have longer sem then the others...

One word of advice to friends that just enter or have not enter uni.... Uni is STRESS!!!!! 100% true!!! unless you are a super slacker...

Thank You!!!

2009-09-21T01:16:00.002+08:00

Thank you everyone for the coming to my 21st Birthday Party!!! It would never be so fun without any of your presence... Well.... I can only say that it is my 1st ever birthday party and i really want to thank my family for all the help they given me ... Finacally or helping me to prepare and get things done!!! I have been a great sucess...

Very Special Thanks to:
~> You Zhi, eldest bro (Photographer of the Day + deco Man)
~> Jasmine, Sis-in-law (deco lady + printing photo for my friends)
~> You Jie, 2nd bro (BBQ cook of the day + children entertainment)
~> Dad (BBQ cook of the day + helping to chat with guest)
~> Mummy (Helping to serve the guest)
~> Auntie (Jelly + BBQ Cook of the day)
~> Eugene, cousin (BBQ cook of the day)
~> Shi Hui, Best Friend (Help to buy deco and stuffs)

Special Thanks to Deco helper + Cleaning Man:
~> Jing Rui
~> Nee Wee
~> Yang Feng
~> Mervin

Thank you the rest of the guest that came to my party!!! I was rather surprised that almost all my relative turns up!!! haha cause i expected a few not to come... but it was a pleasent surprise... haha....
I have enjoyed myself a lot and was happy to have such a successful birthday party in my life.. and i am happy to be able to start a new chapter of life with all my good friends and family members....

Thank you once again and i will upload the photo into facebook at a later date so please try to tag urself!!!

Looking forward to the party!!!

2009-09-18T00:10:00.002+08:00

It is counting down 2 days to my party!!! I really looking forward for all the fun and a good gathering with my families and friends... It has been a while since we last saw each other... oh well... I hope it will be a great party and not get messy.... :P

I have prepared more then sufficent food and drinks for all i guess... it is just that i might go MIA for certain part of the party... haha... I dun know see how things go lor... I scared later super crowded then =.= liao... cause if it is not super crowded then still okie... But i guess it is still fun playing with friends around... haha

Kill Me!!!!

2009-09-11T13:55:00.002+08:00

Oh my god!!! I am going freaking crazy soon... I cannot take it anymore!!! I am so freaking pissed in my school work!!! Esp CPE106 it is named Mathematics II but it dun looks like the maths i have learn before it is too complicated... Now i can say that i finally understand what KK say in poly:"It is a very complicated so you got it wrong!!!" Haha... but i will not say that is 100% true la... but then I can say is 50% is true in the sensce that :"It is a very complicated qn that is why u cannot even start!!!!" OMG!!!

Kill me before i go crazy!!! some more there is a MCQ test comming up on the 22nd sept it is just 2 days be4 my birthday so sad!!!! so tired!!!!

Thanks!!!!

2009-09-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hey Guys!!! As you all know that I have invited your to my birthday party to have fun and your have been asking me for birthday wishes and it is just beside this blog window... so in fact to prevent repeat gift (I hope not to cause it becomes a wastage) maybe your ur do a tag in my chat box on the left... so others can prevent from buying it =) Thanks a lot...